Hue:Blues Pt.2 ( Ryeji )

23. To you.

YJ's POV

It has been days after I received that message from the girl named Lia, whom I presume as my best friend.

A cafe.. she didn't leave any more message after that and it left me with full of questions.

Will I found her there?

What if she's not there?

What questions of mine will be answered if I go there?

But still, I can't find any courage to go there and answer these questions.

I'm here at my house, few days have passed since the last time I went to work and I'm running out of excuses for my absence. Thankfully, Beomgyu was letting me as if he knows what was happening to me.

I should feel comfortable laying on my bed but I feel empty... Tired and emotional but no tears was rolling down.

The ragged sweatshirt... I found myself wearing this again but it doesn't give me the same warmth I feel back then.

And I have no source to get back my energy. That necklace I wear everytime was now gone.. it used to calm me and keep me going at least.

Maybe that's why I can't do anything now.

With a sigh, I forced myself to finally leave my bed and watch outside the window.

It has been raining since I woke up and I feel like the weather sympathizes with what I'm currently feeling.

This feels familiar.

Watching and hearing the drops of the rain somehow calms me but it was still not enough to make me be at peace so I decided to went outside, just at the front door where I can feel the drops hitting my palm.

I squatted down and rest my other arm above my knees while the other receives the coldness of water of the rain.

And as I watch the drops on my palm, I slowly felt heavier inside and being alone doesn't help.

Until I found myself wiping off a lone tear that have rolled down my face. I smiled as finally, I'm letting this out.

"I'm sorry.." I spoke to no one but telling to someone. But my sorry won't be heard and even though she did, I don't think she'll forgive me that easily.

Throughout the days I've spent alone, I realized how much I broke her heart and even... Mine.

Even though I haven't proven that everything Lia has said was a fact, I found myself believing it more than what my Father has told me.

I should've trusted my feelings more... I shouldn't have blame her and hear her more..

"I'm sorry..." I spoke again as I hugged my knees and let myself cry while a few drops of rain hit me.

It's cold but.. it's nothing compared to what I'm feeling inside.

After a while I walked my way up again and plan to hide in my room for the rest of the day. Without any meal, any shower, all I wanted is to sleep but I can't.

But standing here at my door, my eyes roams and found a box peeking under my bed.

'should I?'

Even before I decide, It's now resting on my lap as I sit on the side of my bed, holding it tight.

I know that a single thing was left inside since I'm using the clothes, and returned the key and..

Just by thinking how she hugged me that day... I broke her too much.

As I take a look inside the box, I suddenly feel scared to read the letter. All I remember from the first time I read it was sadness even though I'm clueless but now..