Without You ➳ l.h |DISCONTINUED|

Chapter 14

-Last Day of School-
(Destiny's POV)
I saw Brady today at school, when he would see me he would blush and look away. He was walking away from me the whole day. At the end of 7th hour I had had enough. I stomped towards him and spun him around, if he has a problem he needs to talk.
"Why haven't you answered my calls!? You've been avoiding me since my birthday, your never like this Brady what's your problem?"
"You would know if you didn't completely stop seeing and talking to your "best friend."." He quoted best friend with his fingers in the air. Ugh he was being a jerk!
"Stop seeing and talking to you! Are you kidding me! All I've been doing these past weeks were trying to talk and see you!" My voice was raising. "Tell me what I did, whatever it is." I looked him in the eye glaring at him.
"I.. I just.. I lost you." His voice was soft making me regret raising mine. My face softened. How could I stay mad at him. God damn it he's being so difficult!
"What?" I raised an eyebrow.
"I thought I had lost you, I didn't know if you wanted to talk or see me anymore...I'm sorry."
"Loose me? What are you talking about?"
"I thought I lost you to..Luke." My mouth opened slightly. So many thoughts ran through my head at that moment I couldn't cope. I had fallen for Luke thinking that Brady would never fall for me. Now he has and me and Luke are closer than ever. What the fuck am I going to do now. My feelings for Brady were completely gone now..he had his chance but he lost it..and that's exactly what I told him.
"Brady--listen if you wanted me then you should have gone for it a long time ago. You had your chance and you never took it. Brady I swear I was basically in love with you. The best part of my day was riding to school with you, after a while I gave up. You never showed any signs of liking me so once I met Luke we got close and now you like me an---" I rambled until he stopped me.
"I'm so sorry Destiny." He wrapped me in a hug but I didn't hug back, I couldn't. I had no feelings whatsoever towards him..all my feelings were for Luke. Brady let go and started walking the other direction. I could see him wipe his face with his black shirt as he punched the locker next to him, leaving a dent. I couldn't believe what just happened. Brady had feelings for me that I had just lost for him. What am I going to do! I ran out of the school just as the final bell rang. Luke was picking me up so I would wait for him out front.
As I sat under the huge willow tree in the front yard I noticed that my chest hurt. I held my hand over my chest as I looked up to the blue sky. My heart ached, not out of physical pain but emotional pain. My legs and wrists began to tingle. They itched. The urge was coming back...stronger than ever before. I began to scratch them until I noticed my wrist was bleeding. Crap. The pain kicked in and my head started to feel light. Like everything was disappearing.. I liked it. It was peaceful. All I could see was something white then darkness. The world around me was black..motionless. I wondered if I had died. Maybe..doesn't matter to me. If I was this horrible mess I was in could vanish. It could be nonexistent. But no. That's never how life works. I always have to be saved..every time. It's like I didn't have a choice between life or death. No matter what-the choice would be life, even if it wasn't my choice.