It's 3am and we're still wide awake. We still have to shoot 2 more scenes for the last 3 episodes of 'Got To Believe'.
I am sitting and sulking at the corner. I can't stop being emotional. The preparation I've made for my debut didn't go according to plan. I planned to not yet let the public see the pictorial photos for my debut. It's supposed to be a surprise. But the photos already leaked all over the internet. All I wanna do is cry! Everything is already planned! But in just a snap, it all got ruined. The excitement I'm feeling was turned into sorrow.
This is how I react whenever my plans get ruin. I get hysterical and emotional. I'm really pissed but I don't want to blame anyone. It's useless. I can't do anything to undo it anymore. I just have to accept it and just let my emotions get calm. I sighed. I have to compose myself. I still have work. I need to focus.
I closed my eyes momentarily and breathed. I need these bad emotions to go away.
I snapped my eyes open when I felt something in my feet. I gulped and abruptly jump out of my seat screaming.
"Oh my god! Oh my god!" I shouted and ran away.
The staff and crew panicked when they heard me shouting. "What happened?" Direk Cathy asked, worried. She went near me and touched my face.
I was about to answer when we heard someone laughing. We looked back to the place I seated on earlier. We saw Daniel laughing his hearts out. He was even touching his stomach because of his non-stop laugh.
My brows immediately furrowed. I felt an intense emotion growing inside me. Angry was an understatement. I am furious! What the hell does he think I am? A laughing stock?!
I walked fast towards him. "D-mn! I hate you! I hate you!" I screamed at him and started hitting him. "You jerk! It wasn't funny! I hate you!" I continued screaming. And as if by cue, my tears started to fall.
I cried as I continued hitting him with all my strength. I don't care if he's getting hurt, all I know is I'm mad! I'm mad and I'm tired! I'm feeling different emotions. I just wanna pour it all out. He was shielding himself with his arms but he was not stopping me.
I stopped hitting him then I turned my heels and went inside the tent. There are some people inside but I didn't bother to talk or look at them. I walked towards my folding bed and laid down. I covered myself with the blanket and started sobbing. F-ck this hormones! Why am I so emotional? I know that I'm not supposed to make a big deal out of DJ's prank but I was really pissed. I just wanna let it out. Every emotion that I hid for the past few days. All the stress from tapings, endorsement shoots, debut preparations, pictorials, everything!
"Kath.." I felt someone sit beside me. I didn't answered.
"Ba, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to pissed you off. Sorry." He softly said. I closed my eyes and hiccuped.
"Stop crying, Ba. I'm sorry. I don't wanna see you cry. It pains me to see you like this." He rubbed my arm that's inside the blanket.
I hiccuped once again before removing the blanket out of my face. I slowly looked at him, I found him staring at me.
"I'm sorry. I didn't know I was out of line. Please forgive me." He said.
I sat up and hugged my knees. "No, it's okay. I overreacted. I'm just kinda not in a good mood today. All the preparations for my debut were stressing me. I'm not already having enough sleep because of our tapings, now I rarely can't even take a nap anymore because of these thoughts that are running in my head for my debut. You were just unlucky that I decided to blame it all on your prank earlier. Sorry." I sighed.
