I loved you first(BoyxBoy)

~Chapter 5~

Should I continue the story???
I think yes.

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|Niall's POV |

Goodbye World.

I couldn't do it anymore. People don't understand my pain. I'm mentally and emotionally unstable. Little words can hurt and haunt me for days.

I've been going through so many things I just to end it all.
Zayn was the reason I'm standing here ready to jump off this bridge. He was the final straw.

I'll finally be happy.

In just a few minutes I'll be free from my dad , all the bullies , and my thoughts. I'll be free from everything.

It was a dark chilly night. Iv'e been to chicken to do it,but now im ready.I had goosebumps racing all over my body.The bridge was really high off the air about 50 ft. And no one was walking the streets or driving.

Good no one can stop me.

I don't want to live I can't anymore.There are solutions but I don't see any.
I can't drown my demons they know how to swim.(Bmth song )

OK I'm ready on the count of 5.

1....2....3....4..--

" WAIT NIALL PLEASE DONT DO IT!!! I BEG YOU!"

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|Louis POV|

"I swear to god Malik if he dies tonight... I'm gonna come after you ,and cut your dick off and feed it to your own mum!!!" I yelled

I was furious. I knew Niall was fragile.He was delicate and simple words can hurt him as a bullet would. Zayns such a fucking idiot I swear.

I ran after Niall he needs me.I can't let him do anything stupid.I've been searching all day for him but I couldn't find him.Then it hit me.

I ran as fast as my legs could carry me which is not far since I have short legs, and I went to the only place I could think off the.... Bridge.

I've been there. I've tried to die but I found my solution and it wasn't killing myself. It was my family, they helped me through everything.I could remember every last detail  of my attempt,and I have nightmares at night that would not stop. I hope I can get there in time to try and save my Niall.

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|Zayns POV|

Fuck. I messed up big time. I knew I couldn't do that to my poor Niall. It wasn't me who said that.It was my friends' they dared me to say that.I never wanted to hurt him I just wanted to fit in.

I have everything I could ever want.

I have Money ,I get Bitches, I have people that do whatever I say, and I have great looks.

I'm sexy I know.

But that doesn't mean it's all sunshine and rainbows.

My parents aren't really my parents I was adopted. My mum was a Drug addict and was a prostitute. She would bring a handful of guys over each day to our house and do them all, sometimes all at once.

My father wasn't any better, he was in a gang. The dangerous one in all of England.he was killed. Haha good for him.

My mum couldn't take care of me anymore so she left me in a dumpster.I was 4.
I didn't know why she would abandon me, we were playing hide and seek and she never came back.

I wish I found a better place to hide my beautiful hair it was smelly and a mess.

I waited there 4 days before I was found by a nice middle aged women and her husband.

I thought from that moment on I would have a better life with my new parents but no.

I never really saw them.Fuck work. I was alone everyday with no one to play with or talk to In this big ass house.

In middle school I changed. I had to .I didn't want to be a target or a victim So I choose to be the bully. I changed my whole look,personality, and attitude.

From that day forward I was the I don't give a fuck ,and I get all bitches boy. I was heartless.I couldn't let anyone know the real me. I just couldn't.

I ran after Louis trying carefully not to be heard. I needed to get there first. I needed to make things right. If he kills himself I would blame myself all my life.I would never be able to live with all of the guilt.

I'm the one who said those awful words. It's all my fault.

I knew where Louis was headed I heard him say something about a bridge so I took the short cut.

He can't die tonight.He has so much to live for.

I finally got to the bridge but I was too late.

He was gone. Forever.

"Nooo!!! Niall, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean all those words I said please forgive m--ee !!" I yelled and sobbed into the cold air.

What use did it have anyway he was dead all because of me.I'll never be able to live with myself.

I was the reason NIALL JAMES HORAN IS DEAD.

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Don't worry everything will play out I'm the next chapters.I love you guys stay Directioners :)

Favorite color?

Me: pink and black

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