I loved you first(BoyxBoy)

~Chapter 7~

I wanna give a special shout out to LLeeiillaannii for always supporting my story and to unicorns2219 you guys give me the inspiration to continue writting love you

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|Niall's POV |

Im never gonna forgive Zayn for being a dick. He almost made me kill myself and I see him with his friends laughing his ass off like nothing happened.

I mean seriously ?!?

Don't get me wrong, he's so sexy and has a nice body but a terrible personality.

That's a deal breaker.

I want the whole package.I want the type of guy that is sweet, caring,kind,good with kids,and rough if you know what I mean.*wink wink*

When I first saw him I fell for him Hard.but I had to act like I didn't.I can't have another person taking advantage of my weaknesses.He seemed nice and genuine I couldn't actually believe he was a douche around his friends.

I really hate when that happens a hot ass guy who has a shitty personality.Why can't you just be hot and actually have a brain and feelings.

I can't stop thinking about....

Those golden brown eyes
All that dark inked tattoos marking his olive skin
That gorgeous raven hair
His jawline! don't get me started on that
And his long eyelashes.

I hate myself for thinking of him this way.He doesn't deserve my thoughts late at night.He doesn't deserve all the feelings I have inside.

I just wish that I could call him mine.

If only he knew how I really felt on the inside and not just who I am on the outside.

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|Zayn's POV |

You wouldn't believe me if told you.

I do feel sorry.

I know what I did was wrong i just can't let myself fall for him.I need to stay away form this thing called love.

Who needs love?!?
Not this guy.I don't need anyone but myself.I've raised myself i protected and fought for what I think is right and what I stand for.

People just don't understand. I can't let myself fall for him he's to good for me.I'm a screw up.I've been told that all my life. I've never been in a real relationship that people describe in movies and books.

No sparks , No protective feeling over them ,no seeing my future with them.

Its all just hit it and quit it.

I'm horny all the time and I need to release it all and let it go.

I have a reputation for sleeping around and breaking hearts.I never look for them they just come to me. I guess that you can call me a chick magnet.

I'm not gay.

Gay people disgust me .ewww

That was the old me. I'm such a hypocrite. I Zayn Malik have feelings for a guy.

I just can't describe the feelings i have when im around him.I've never really spent more than 3 days with him but I can feel chemistry.

I never really fucked a boy but that can change real quick.I'm not gonna bottom.Nope.I top I like having control and be dominate with it.Not like 50 shades of grey that bitch is crazy, both of them.