This person wanted Rui angst
----------------> tsukasatenmabest
So thanks <33
This has mentions of suislides, self harm and overall angst
I hope this is what you wanted. I got kinda carried away with the theme of angst...
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Rui POV:
Why bother showing up to practice today? Not like I'm any help to them. Tsukasa is a star, Emu is positive, Nene is encouraging, what the fuck am I? Useless. What's the point anymore? I grab a box cutter. Do I want to do this?
Yes.
I start cutting my arm violently, careful not to let any open space left untouched. I start to cry. What have I done? What if the others notice? Should I end it all now? I'm cut off by a phone call from Tsukasa.
"Where are you Rui? I'm getting worried.." He says.
"I-I'm sorry Tsukasa..." I hang up and lay down. I can't die... Tsukasa means to much to me, I can't leave him alone. Even if we aren't dating. What if he doesn't love me back? I hear someone barge into my house and bang on my door.
"RUI! R-RUI OPEN THE DOOR!" It's tsukasa. I walk over and he hugs me tightly when I open the door. He notices my arms and cries, "Rui-kun...? why?" tears escape my eyes and I fall to the floor.
"I... don't know..." I mumble.
"Rui, we can get through this together. I'm right by your side." I don't deserve this shit. I'm always trying to act all comforting and stuff but why can't I comfort myself? I'm so pathetic I cant even confess to my crush. WHO'S RIGHT THERE FOR FUCKS SAKES! I'm doing it.
"Tsukasa.. I love you. A lot." I say without hesitation. GAH! WHY WOULD I SAY THAT? I'M SUCH A LOSER! I DESERVE TO DIE!
"R-Rui..?" He looks shocked. Yeah I would too if someone as idiotic as me just confessed to a star like himself. "I love you too.." He kisses me.... HE KISSED ME! WHAT DO I DO?! I panic. "C-calm down.."
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I'm so sorry this one is so short its 3 in the morning and I am fucking tired.
