Transkasa real
Tsukasa was born a girl in this AU 😍😍😍😍
Me when
Kinda rushed but who cares
I might be posting smut tmr idk
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Tsukasa POV:
I look in the mirror with disgust. I hate having breasts, I hate having my long hair, I hate my feminine features, I hate my high pitched voice, i hate getting my period. I hate it all. But most of all, I hate the feeling that comes along with it all. The constant questioning of my gender. The constant hating myself and how I look.
I've tried things to help. What does help is a binder and dressing masculine. I haven't cut my hair yet but once I do, I think I'll feel good. My parents would literally kill me if I did though. But what do they matter? I can stay with someone else if they hate me, right? I hope so...
I pick up the scissors hesitantly. Am I really doing this? Oh my god. I'm actually doing this. The first chunk I cut falls to the floor of my bathroom. I feel a rush of excitement. I keep cutting until my hair looks.... like a real boy's... I style it and look in the mirror once more.
A big grin creeps onto my face. I did it. It feels so good to finally... look... right. I chuckle lightly. The realization of what I did comes to me and I feel even better. I look at all the hair i cut. So... much...
I suppose I should make some adjustments to my costume so the chest area is fitted with the binder on. I do the measurements and fix it. It takes a LONG time but it's worth it in the end. I replace the skirt on my costume with some pants.
I put everything on and I look. . . SO MUCH BETTER THEN I THOUGHT I WOULD OH MY GOD. The usual feeling of guilt uncomfort is almost completely gone. Of course because of... having a... yeah... besides that, everything's perfect.
For the only time in my life, I'm happy with how I look. I just hope everyone else doesn't hate me.
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The day I've waited for a week now has finally come. I have practice so I get to see Rui, Nene, and Emu. I put on my costume and a hoodie on top to hide my hair. I figure my chest being slightly smaller isn't that big of a difference.
I put the hood up to hide my hair and go downstairs.
"Goodbye Tsukasa! Have fun at practice!" Saki says cheerfully. I give a smile and wave. I dart out the door and run all the way to Phoenix wonderland. I want to get there as fast as I can.
A strong feeling of nervousness washes over me. What if they don't like it? What if Rui breaks up with me? Nevermind. It's best not to think.
I arrive at the gate and enter hesitantly. I approach the wonderstage and see everyone else. The terrible feeling in my stomach gets stronger.
"Hello Tsukasa-chan!" Emu says.
"Hi.." I smile weakly.
"Why do you have a sweatshirt on? It's almost 80 degrees?" Nene asks.
"I uhm- before I this, d-don't freak out and hate me." I say holding back some tears that had started building up.
"My dear, nothing could make us hate you. Right guys?" Rui says.
"Uh-huh!☆" Emu shouts. Nene gives a slight nod.
"O-ok..." I take my hood down and start sweating. "Don't laugh or judge me but I am kinda a boy now if that makes any sense." I chuckle a bit.
"So this is you coming out to us?" Nene asks.
"Y-yeah, it kinda is...." I rub the back of my head.
"Oh. THATS SO WONDERHOY TSUKASA-CHAN!☆ Oopsies! I guess you'd like Tsukasa-kun better huh..." she mumbles quietly shaking her head. "THATS SO WONDERHOY TSUKASA-KUN!☆"
I feel more tears threaten to leave at her remark. I feel so welcome and accepted by them. Until Rui starts to laugh. He laughs so much in fact, he cries. He sees me start to actually cry and hugs me.
"Oh my, I can't believe you thought we would hate you for that. Like I said, NOTHING will make me hate you, my love. I'm so proud of you for being yourself." He kisses my forehead and I choke out a cry.
"D-do you still love me..?" I ask, looking up at him.
"Of course!" He says, mildly offended.
"But I'm a boy now.." I mutter. He shrugs.
"I guess you could say it's a perk of being bisexual." He chuckles. I start laughing.
"Yeah.. guess so." We share a gentle kiss.
"Ew gay people" Nene says.
"Nene-chan! Don't be a meanie!" Emu pouts.
"S-sorry Emu-chan.." She blushes a bit.
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I was I was tsukass rn fr I wrote this cuz I was crying about being a girl 😍😍😍😍😍😍
I will make ruru birthday thing because I love him
