A mom for Christmas

Golden garden beach

Stef's: POV
After we got back to the house
I dropped Lena off and went for a drive down to golden garden beach
I just needed to time to clear my head
I wasn't sure what l was feeling. The way Jeff was flirting with Lena, l know never in a millons years Lena would cheat on me. The way he kept looking Lena up and down, Lena didn't give him a second glance
The whole thing made me sick to my stomach. Lena is a beautiful attractive sexy woman, l'm not use man and women staring at her when we're out in public. Part of me was jealous
I know I shouldn't be but she married
Me, l gave her everything she wanted
Lena never asked me for anything. I did it out of the goodness of my heart
Maybe l should share my insecurities with Lena, the last woman I dated before Lena broke my heart to pieces
After I found out she was messing around behind my back. My friends tried to warn me that Nadine was only after my money, deep down inside. I knew she was being unfaithful to me, we were together two years. I happened to catch her in the act, some friends and I went to dinner. And guess who I saw all  booed up in a man's arms, the whole time I thought she was a lesbian. Nadine pretend to be gay, that night l got back to my condo l was so angry
I packed up all her belongings and tossed them in boxes and sat them outside the front door. Then I changed all of the locks and passcode to the alarm system so she wouldn't be able to get in, when she came back trying to get in the house. Banging on all the doors, screaming for me to let her in. I ignored her pleading and begging, a few hours went back
I looked through the blinds and her car was gone. From that moment on
I vowed never to put my heart on the line ever again, until a friend of mine introduced me to Lena Adams. There was Something about her that was different from Nadine. I asked her out three times and she turned me down
But the third time Lena accepted my offer, l knew l had to work hard to get her. She was smart funny classy sophisticated did l mention beautiful
Plus she well educated, Lena didn't put up with my bullshit. We didn't reached second base until our one year anniversary, she made me work for it. I knew she had a hard time trusting people, especially when the people who were closer to her broke her spirit. We got in engaged two years later, and we were married a year after. We had a fairly tale wedding in Disney world, the magical place on earth. I think today triggered my anxiety, seeing that guy flirt with Lena. It felt like deja vu all over again
I know Lena isn't Nadine, where getting ready to start a family soon
I kinda figured you'll be here, the only time you come to the beach when something's really bothering you Stef
Your mother told me about the last woman you dated broke your heart and how you caught her with a man
Lena said. My mother has a big mouth
How did you find me anyway Stef asks, like I just told you. Even when we were seeing other. You would always come see the sunset or just to calm from something that happened
Your not the only who struggling with insecurities, as a teenager growing up
I never liked being biracial cause the girls in school always called me half breed. I use coming home from school crying, my dad sat me down and explained to me. How his father married a black woman, he got bully a lot. Then he met Dana and the girl he was currently dating was jealous cause she realized she was no match for Dana because of dark her skin
They faced adversity cause they were a interracial couple. Back in the day  they thought blacks belong with their own kind, l looked like my father's mother Maybelle who was light skinned with long straight hair and chestnut brown eyes. Every body always asked me why I never dated African American women, l never cared about stereo types. I always felt attracted to white women if l'm being honest, l know you were bothered the way Jeff star glazing over me. This was actually my first time meeting him today, that man is gay as a two dollar bill. baby your the only one for me, and it's okay to admit you were jealous Lena says. Okay l was a little jealous, Stef replies. Lena wrapped her arms around Stef's neck and leans in kisses Stef on the lips. Lena pulls back, l love you and only you
Please don't forget that. Let's go down to cold stone ice cream parlor, l have a taste for a Carmel sundae with nuts
Lena lucks her lips. Love you wonder the girls are so hyper all the time,
Cause the sweets you keep eating
How bout we swing by that diner and grab some chicken burgers and fries then come back here and have a picnic, once the babies get here
We won't have a lot us time
Stef responds. Stephanie will make time together, even if it's a romantic dinner, watch a movie cuddle up down the family room. Intimacy isn't always about having sex, all the time
Lena explains. I never thought about it like that Stef replied, l like the closeness between us. Stef Stated
They stayed at the beach and watched the sunset, Stef felt ten times better after talking about what was bothering her. Lena was understanding,