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~Itch~

that itch to cry
to hurt, to scream
to release my inner pain
to let my walls down
it keeps nagging me
"a dissappointment is all you are"
an endless mantra in my mind
silently cursing my soul
as i see the world blur
why is everything so hard?
but still my face remains stoic
my smile barely conceives anything
of the emotion hidden beneath
yet my eyes may betray me
but no one cares enough
to even look into them
they shine with the unshed tears
the pain of seeing myself break
and i cant find it in myself to fight
as i once again cry myself to sleep
high on that drug
that barely puts my mind on ease