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~Recall~

I can still recall my little innocent self
crying loudly to make my parents know
that their words had stung as hell
I remember smiling so much
that my eyes used to close
and there were tears threatening to fall
I remember shouting on the streets
not caring about the stares
not an ounce of responsibility
I remember waking up each day
with a newfound motivation to laugh
everything fullfilled my expectations
and there was barely any sorrow in my life
I remember playing grown ups
and thinking i would be a pretty woman
hapoy with her life and satisfied
I however dont remember
thinking that I would want to die
that I would cry silently every night
hoping that my parents dont wake up
I dont remember thinking I would fake smiles
nor that i would stop those tears from falling
I dont remember thinkg I would hate myself
the person I see when I look
the face that looks right back
showing me my broken soul
I used to dream of fairy tales and a happy life
but all I have is a flawed mind
that keeps pushing and reminding me
of the failure I am