Only yesterday we were on the runYou smile back at me and your face lit up the sunNow I'm waiting here for someone
Two months ago me and my childhood sweetheart broke up. I never thought it would happen but it did. I was the one that ruined it by always being out with the lads or football. Even playing FIFA, so she left and I then woke up. I remembered everything I did and knew it was my fault, it ended in a fight and I admit, she said some hurtful things that really did hurt me but now I'm by myself. I love her and now I'm broken.
And oh, love, do you feel this rough?
Why's it only you I'm thinking of?
Everyday since then I've been going to training, matches and home. I spend time with myself and Ben's worried but how do I explain to them that I was the reason she left. I forced her out. I made the mistake of neglecting her. I ruined us. Willa loved me but just happened.
My shadow's dancing
Without you for the first timeMy heart is hopingYou'll walk right in tonightTell me there are things that you regret'Cause if I'm being honest I ain't over you yetIt's all I'm askingIs it too much to ask?Is it too much to ask?
So tonight I'm at a pub with Ben, Mason and Declan. I sit beside Ben, with my beer when I hear a laugh. I look up and Willa is standing there in a red dress. I sigh and look down. "James, you ok?" asked Ben. "I don't know. I miss her" I said. I look up and watch Willa sitting down with some friends. "I just.... does she regret it like I do?" I ask. "I don't know, I honestly don't know" said Mason, sighing. I look at her and she's smiling and laughing. "Is she happy?" I ask. "She looks it but she could be hiding" said Ben, looking at me. "Yeah. Maybe" I said.
Someone's moving outside
The lights come on and down the driveI forget you're not here when I close my eyesDo you still think of me sometimes?
After we leave, I go home and lie on my bed. I notice lights going on outside and I sigh. My neighbour is home and I sigh. No one is here, she's not here. I don't have my girlfriend anymore.
And oh, love, watch the sun coming up
Don't it feel fucked up we're not in love?
The next few days is the same, everything is the same. I haven't laughed fully like I used to but I will eventually.
Tell me there are things that you regret'Cause if I'm being honest I ain't over you yetMy shadow's dancingWithout you for the first timeMy heart is hopingYou'll walk right in tonightTell me there are things that you regret'Cause if I'm being honest I ain't over you yetIt's all I'm askingIs it too much to ask?It's all I'm askingIs it too much to ask?It's all I'm askingIs it too much to ask?
It's been a year and I'm over her. I actually am over her, I'm done with being sad. Today I'm meeting a girl, Kennedy Alexa, for our first date. She moved over here for her job as a model and we met when she came to a Lecister game. I get to her house and knock.
"Hi! You look beautiful" I said, blushing. My hearts beating really fast and I just know, she could be the one. We head to the restaurant and we settle down. "So, how was your last relationship?" asked Kennedy. "My childhood sweetheart and it got to a point where I was so busy with football and training. Also going out with friends. We got into an arguement and it ended us. It was bad on my part but I just.... I don't know why it happened." I said. "Could it have been she wasn't trying too?" asked Kennedy. I look at her. "She never did ask me out or to hang. I guess it may have not been my entire fault" I said, sighing.
"Your an amazing man, James." said Kennedy, taking my hand. "Thank you" I said. We enjoy our dinner and well, we go home.
We became official a month later and found out she is pregnant 3 months after becoming official. She was scared I'd leave but I know she's my soulmate.
Now she's 4 months and we're going to an event for PrettyLittleThing.
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"Wow, Kenny! You look breathtaking as does the bump" I said. She blushes and kisses me. We get in the car they sent and drive to the venue. Once we arrive, we go inside. This is the moment we're coming out to the public about our relationship and our baby news. The paps take pictures and I know it will be everywhere. Once we get inside, I see Willa. I smile at Kennedy and she smiles. "I know Willa is here" said Kennedy.
"I don't care, nothing is coming back" I said. "I know that, James. I know you" said Kennedy. I smile and kiss her. "James?" asked Willa. I pull back. "Hi, Willa. Willa, this is Kennedy, my girlfriend and our son" I said, gesturing to her stomach. "Oh hi" said Willa. "Hi! It's lovely to meet you!" said Kennedy, smiling. "You too" said Willa. "I'll let you two talk" said Kennedy. "Ok, but be careful" I said, rubbing her stomach. "I will" said Kennedy, kissing me.
She goes to a seat and sits down. "James, I'm sorry. I think I made you the villain and I'm sorry." said Willa. I shake my head. "Both of us were in the wrong. Willa, we were childhood sweethearts and Kens helped me so much. We were never meant to last forever, I would have eventually met Kennedy and falling for her. I enjoyed our time but I guess the arguement was a sign and we needed to end it" I said, looking at her. "I know, I just wish I handled it better" said Willa. "So do I but its in the past. I wish you all the best" I said, nodding and going back to Kennedy.
She kisses me. "How did that feel?" asked Kennedy. "Good. I feel more free" I said, smiling.
Our son Leo was born 5 months later and we're so lucky to have him.
Me and Willa were never endgame and it took me to meeting Kennedy to realise that.
I hope you enjoyed!
I was going to do a Phil Foden one but I felt like James Maddison would be a good one!
