Larissa x reader

Dont lie to me| hurt and comfort

*A/n ~ this prompt could go many ways so this is just one version I have drafts for others so let me know if you wish to see those. Oh and yes the children mentioned in this fic may make another appearance soon. All I can do is apologise at how long it's taken me to post this. I've had a family member rushed into hospital so it's all been hectic here. Feel free to keep requesting doves*

Tw~ abuse

Prompt~ 57 (you're not fine!) this will be just one version of the prompt requested by idkaname666666

Holidays. A part of the academic year you've always hated. Even during your time as a student you much preferred having the routine of attending the Academy. Holidays always threw you off your grove. As much as everyone else adored them, you definitely hated them. Despite being an outcast in a family of outcasts, you always felt as if you were an outsider. Probably due to the fact you came from a family of mind manipulators. No thoughts were every private for you. Something you'd grown up with, so you got good at not thinking. It was the only way after all. You however, could not manipulate the mind. No, you had the ability manipulate emotions.

The sub parts of the ability meant you could send out emotions through emotional waves, read others emotions as well as feeling them.  Your own parents felt disgusted when you first told them. The only child of there's to be a misfit. Your brothers and sisters all followed the family design so it was only natural you became singled out.  You could even recall when your own mother accused you of manipulating her feelings of disgust into a placebo of love. That one stung. It was actually the final straw that made you go no contact for a while.

Recently you'd been communicating with your family via letters. Seemingly it was going well. You were told how your brother had given you a niece named Faye Diane (I absolutely adore names and this is one on my long list) and a little nephew called Emerson James. (Emerson is a name I fell in love with at 13 and James is a family name) they often referred to the children as Fay and Emery. Fay was 4 and Emery would be turning 3 over the holidays. Which was actually the reason for todays letter. You'd been invited to Emery's birthday party and the Christmas holidays. 

After some thought you decided to try. You sent a letter back confirming your attendance and then informed your boss of your leave. You could tell she was shocked at the request but trying to disguise it. Kind of hard when your an empath. Still you appreciated the thought. This would be the first time you left Nevermore since your graduation of the Academy. You were still there but a teacher now. Every holiday you stayed at the school, often Larissa would stay with you along side a couple of other staff members here and there.  Occasionally some students would stay over the holiday but most would attend home.

You left for your home town the same day as the students. Nerves clinging to every fibre of your being. But surly they had to have gotten over it by now? Right? You were a talented empath, teaching children and supporting yourself. Hopefully they would be proud of the woman you had become. This would be the first time meeting your niece and nephew. What would they think of you? You spent your travels in a constant flow of thought. Anxiously coming up with multiple ways this trip could go.

In almost a blink of an eye, the holiday season ended and you were back on your travels to Nevermore. You'd never imagined it going how it did. Now you were left just Numb. The past two weeks were hell. Not even lucifer themselves would enjoy that kind of torture. You were unable to process this. After all you just wanted them to love you. Now you were sat numb and sore. How would you hide the physical and emotional pain you felt? Especially knowing you could accidentally push out those feelings during class. Maybe a leave of absence? No that would attract too much suspicion. You had no choice, but to tuck it away deep deep down within yourself and continue on with life as normal.

Classes quickly returned to the usual schedule and seemingly everyone else remained unchanged. But you. It was subtle changes at first, the dark circles under your eyes, the frequent headaches, remaining extremely guarded in your mind and even the occasional mood swing. All things you could pass off. And you thought you had. Then it progressed into something more. Not only were you absolutely exhausted the emotional turmoil was just too much. The two weeks, reopened many emotional scars you thought were long since sealed. Now you were left to bare the consequences of your naivety. A fight you were in alone. As always. You were use to being able to go unnoticed. But Nevermore was not like your home town. People love and care for you here. Specifically the principle, who had noticed the changes in your usual persona and noted them down. It wasn't long before the list was compelling enough, that she could confront you in a subtle way.

That's how you ended up sat in front of the women fiddling with your fingers in anticipation of what was to come. Despite being a teacher at Nevermore, you were unsure of what the principal could do. Not knowing if she could see into your mind set off an unmatched anxiety causing you to remain shut off.

"Y/n? Did you hear me dear?" The concern flooded her words and you could see it sat in her sapphire irises. "I'm sorry principle weems, I seemed to have missed that could you repeat it?" You mumbled in response having to look away from her, the look in her eyes being too much for you to handle. Of course you'd still feel the concern radiating from her, but not seeing it made you feel less guilty in a way. It was obvious she knew something was up. But what did she think was wrong?

"Y/n, you're not yourself darling what's wrong? You've been acting strange since returning from your leave." She stated and that was when you knew no amount of pretending would state her. After all you were a staff member which to Larissa meant family. Little did you know the women harboured the same feelings for you as you did her.

"I'm fine" you mumbled out causing a rash response from the taller women, "you're not fine! Y/n please let me help you" she softened her tone not wanting to complete scare you. It was then that you broke down. Years of trauma, years of pain and the harsh reality of feeling everyone's emotions just hit you like a freight train.

Instantly Larissa rounded the desk and gathered you into her arms. You whimpered out in pain but made no move to escape her hold. "Oh my darling, I think I know what's happened here. Can I try and guess?" She whispered into your hair, holding you to her. You nodded trying to gain control over your emotions. "My darling, you went home for the first time since you took the job here, then you come back all strange and you never talk of any family. Is your family not too kind to you my darling?"

It was those words that lost your control. Your feeling radiating from your distraught form. Larissa gasped from the sheer intensity of then before bringing her hand to mess with your hair in a soothing motion. She may not know what has happened to you, or what could cause such powerful emotions but she would make damn sure you never felt this level of torture every again. "I have you my darling y/n. You're safe. No one will hurt you anymore my love"

Word count ~ 1381
*A/n~ I really don't like this one I'll re write it at some point but I wanted to post something out here for you all. As I said above my family member is in hospital they required cpr and were no longer with us for a little while. It was really scary and although they are in the right place it's extremely hectic for me right now*