Larissa x reader

Motherhood| fluff

*Authors note~I'm not sure how long this will be but I love it writing for momma Rissa and mommy r with my oc children. Anyone know any good programs or apps to use to draw up my oc children?*

Trigger warnings~ motherhood, PND mentioned

Prompt~ tumblr anon~ Could you write a prequel of Could We Be Parents?
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You had given birth to your twin daughters Delilah Faye and Dahlia Rae two weeks ago. Larissa had been able to take two weeks leave from Nevermore and spend time with you and your two beautiful daughters. They were identical in every way, to the point others couldn't tell them apart but you and Larissa could. The subtle differences in their personalities and behaviours. Lilah liked to sleep and was often calm but Lia was fussy and didn't like to be put down. She was an amazing eater but her twin sister not so much. Having Larissa there to hold one twin while you fed the other was extremely helpful but knowing she'd be gone today was causing you to panic.

It felt like your daughters preferred their mamma, you fed them sure but it felt like that's all you ever do is feed and change them, no time to bond with either baby, but Larissa could. What kind of mother were you if you couldn't bond with them? You felt like you were failing as a mother already and they were only two weeks old.

Lia woke up crying for her six am feed and you instantly got her settled watching as your wife got ready for work. A few moments later Lilah woke and you panicked, although she wasn't crying you knew she was due her feed and the thought of her being hungry and alone while you tended to Lia was heartbreaking. "Hi my sweet girl. You're so sweet baby, yes you are. Momma will feed you next okay little love" your wife murmured checking on Lilah. You didn't realise it but tears were streaming down your cheeks. How could you do this alone? With Lia settled and asleep in her Moses basket you picked up Delilah and began to attempt to feed her. "Darling, you're doing such a good job and just know I'll be a phone call away okay? If you need me call okay?" Larissa reassured you before kissing your lips gently and bidding you goodbye. You were alone.

It was a strange but Delilah was fed and also asleep so you laid down in your shared bed and sleep claimed you. Your mind plagued with nightmares of you being a terrible mother, Larissa taking the girls and leaving you alone. It was horrid and to think it was all because you couldn't bond with them. You felt terrible and you knew mothers were meant to love unconditionally so why were you broken? Your body had grown and changed and carried them for nine months so why?

All day you'd done nothing around the apartment. The twins seemingly tag teaming you every chance they had, you hadn't gotten dressed showered or done any basic hygiene today. Delilah threw up her last feed which happened to land all over your top. Truly you couldn't help but cry. You made sure to put both now sleeping infants in their bouncing chairs before crawling over to the corner of the room and sobbing quietly to yourself.

In your upset haze you didn't even realise your wife return from work, you didn't hear her call out for you so when she found you in your current state all you could do was cry. Your hair and face a mess, clothes ruined as your breaths tried to regulate themselves you were mumbling about how you failed, a terrible mother, telling her to take the girls away she was unfit. "Couldn't stop them crying" you whimpered before she wrapped you up in her arms. "Sweetheart, why didn't you call me?" She murmured rocking you slightly being carful to not get spit up on her dress. "Need to be good mother can't rely on you" you whispered sounding absolutely broken, truly she hadn't realised you'd been feeling like this. She wanted you to bask in the beauty and glory of creating such beautiful humans.

A silence fell over you both as you struggled to contain your emotions. "Sweetheart, you are simply an amazing mother, I'm so in awe of you for carrying Lilah and lia for us and birthing them so beautifully, you've given us a family baby. Two little perfect miracles and I love our little family so much, let me take care of you okay?" She murmured kissing your head as you looked at your daughters. True beauty is what they were so you nodded and mumbled apologies until Larissa ushered you to bed to get some rest. Instantly you were asleep, the girls wouldn't need a feed for a little bit so Larissa set her plan in motion.

"Lia and lilah be good girls for auntie Mari okay?" She murmured kissing both sleeping infants heads before thanking Marilyn once more before heading out to grab some supplies. By the time she arrived back Lia had woken up fussy as Marilyn tried to soothe her. Quickly taking over she thanked Marilyn before soothing her daughter. Once Lia was settled, feed time was approaching so she often became fussy, Larissa drew you a nice bath lit some candles added a few rose petals and the lavender lemon scent you loved before waking you up.

Once the girls were fed, you headed for a soak in the water, Larissa readied the girls for bed and laid out a few gifts, just small things to make you feel special. She even dressed both infants in the "I love my mommy onsies." When you came back to the room you were greeted with two sleeping babies and a sleeping wife. Here and now you knew you were glad, although you felt bad about being a horrid mother you loved these three more than life itself, Larissa did all of this to make you feel special and remind you that no matter what those thoughts tell you, you're a wonderful mother and a wonderful wife.

Word count~ 1042