Larissa x reader

This is me| fluff

*Authors note| it's a short one I'm sorry! I hope I've done this okay, I don't have much experience with this topic but I wanted to give it my best shot, thank you to the people who bind that gave me some irl experience.*

Trigger warnings ~ none? Binding? Dysphoria

Prompt ~ tumblr anon ~ Hey first of all i've been loving your fics they're so good. I was wondering if i could request maybe a a larissa × reader with a trans (ftm) reader or maybe a non binary reader who bind and it's a really big deal for them to let people be around them or see them without their binder on so when they are finally ready it's a big deal and larissa just showers them with love and reassurances that she will always see them for themselves. if u don't wanna write this just completely ignore me anyways have a wonderful day :)
✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧ ✧
Feeling comfortable in your own skin is always so important. After all if your not comfortable with yourself how could you be confident and live life to the fullest. Some people are lucky and they are comfortable in the skin they are born with, some aren't so lucky and unfortunately that was you. For years now you'd battled with this alone, not quite fitting into a specific "box" which was always frustrating. Truthfully you wondered if you would ever be happy with a specific label or gender. For now though you decided not to stress about a label, after all it's just a word at the end of the day.

You had clothes for every emotion, feminine great you had clothes for that, male? Easily you'd whip out the flannel jackets and baggy trousers and in between those? Easy you could mix and match until you found the right outfit for you that day. Sometimes it would feel like every outfit you tried didn't work. You still felt wrong. And on those days your stunning girlfriend would come and hold you. Kisses being pressed anywhere she could reach while she showered you with love, praise and comforting words.

One thing that remains constant is you would wear your binder. Safely of course, you knew the rules and had done extensive research to ensure you were binding safely and correctly. Larissa would also help you by paying attention to how long you were binding for and supporting you through the whole experience. Honestly you couldn't believe just how lucky you had been the day she asked you to be hers. The reason binding was a constant feature for you is that it made you feel comfortable. You hated the thought of your chest not at least being smaller than you were born with. Binding gave that release and look you truly desired. So you hadn't actually been around anyone without binding. Larissa had respected that boundary and always left the lights off or turned away until you were happy for her to see you.

She'd done this for months now, you knew you could trust her, she wouldn't say or do anything that made you uncomfortable and you knew that for a fact. That's why tonight you were determined to push past this routine and allow her to see all of you. Yes the binder didn't change you, but there was something about showing her, something special and that's what made you really want to do it. You were ready and you knew you were safe with her.

The plan was to go and change before her, tell her you were ready and let her just see you. Yet when the plan had been set in motion the nervous bubbled up to the surface. This shouldn't be so hard. Ultimately it was now or never. So you pushed through that and continued with the plan. Your voice wavered as you called her into the room. Sat on the bed topless and exposed while your fingers shook in your lap. You heard the gasp and tears prickled in your eyes. Shit! She didn't like it. Tears flowed freely as you moved to cover yourself.

"Darling? I'm so so sorry I thought you had finished and that's why you called me. Im so sorry I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable my love please forgive me" she hurried out coming closer to you. Wait what? She didn't? That was confusing. You whimpered out "I wanted to show you" as you sucked a shaky breath in between each word. "My darling, you did? That's great love I just want you to know I think you're stunning. Binder or no binder" she reassured gathering you in her arms, you twisted your body to hide your chest knowing she had seen it. The words causing tears to stream now. Larissa always made you feel like you were amazing in every way. And this was no exception.

Sensing you were feeling uncomfortable Larissa offered you your shirt which you took mumbling a thank you and put it on, before settling in her arms on the bed. Whispers of praise love and gratitude were cocooning you as you listened to the beating of her heart. Although you didn't feel you fit in a label or box, here in her arms you felt the happiest you ever could be.

Word count~ 880