In My Life I Love You More

Chapter Seventy Six

"Okay lover boy. It's time to go through the New York boxes. As you can see I've separated two boxes and a garbage bag. We've got a lovey selection for you today sir with: keep, donate and trash." Josephina gestured before her while John nodded somewhat reluctantly.

She had tricked him, the little minx. It was the evening after his and Greyson's arrival home from their camping trip with Julian (the later having been dropped off at the airport earlier in the day) and she had coaxed him into a very sweet, gentle love making that eased him into sleep-only to wake him at nine with work.

"Don't give me that look babe you promised me when you got back, you'd go through this shit and make space." His wife placed her hands on her hips, trying to look stern but in John's personal opinion, looked rather sexy.

  "Yes miss." He smirked as she rolled her eyes, yet a smile crept onto her face.

   They worked in silence for a few minutes until Josephina pulled out a notebook, flipping through it and frowning at the unrecognizable handwriting which frankly sort of looked like some sort of Mandarin?

  "John, is this Yoko's by any chance?" She handed the book over and he glanced through, nodding. 

  "Yeah, that's her handwriting. Can't make out what it says, but that's her." He put the book aside and his wife noticed something shifted in the air around him.

  "How-how is she lately?" Josephina forced the words out but John took no notice of her tone. 

  "She's.....Okay. She had a doctors oppointment recently. Trying to figure out why she couldn't have another baby the last year or so. Doctor said it's her age but more so because of her previous drug use."

  "That's not surprising." Josephina muttered under her breath, however John's (though he lacked sight, he made up for in hearing) head snapped towards her sharply and he glared.

  "What does that mean?"

  Josephina looked at him in disbelief, "John. Don't act so surprised. We had enough trouble conceiving Emmy and the twins and you hadn't been using as long as her!"

   John looked ready to retort but held his tongue, instead turning his back to his wife and continued working.

"And this tape says, Baby's heart-" she trailed off brows furrowed as she looked over at John who was frozen, back rigid, "beat? John what is this?"

"Nothing to concern yourself with." John turned suddenly, snatching the tape from her roughly, startling her as he clutched it, getting to his feet, grabbing the entire box.

"John-"

"Just fuck off!" He snapped and left her on the floor alone, staring after him in disbelief and hurt.

   Down the hall John stormed, almost knocking into his son who had lit up when I spotted his father.

"Hey Dad, Jason showed me this really cool-"

  "Not now Greyson."

   "But Dad-"

   "I fucking told you not now damnit! What is wrong with you?!" The Englishman roared and continued on his way towards his music room, leaving a rattled Greyson who clung to the wall frightened.

   Back down the hall, Josephina squeezed her eyes shut, cradling her stomach protectively.

  Why........