Forced to move (glad I did) Ziggy Katz X Will Byers

Chapter 13 - Explanations

Mike and Will arrived at Mike's house.  Mike had Will follow him up to his room and Mike locked his door. 

"Mike,what do you want to talk about?"  Mike shrugged his shoulders.  "Since you don't want to start I have a question for you Mike?"  Mike nodded.  "Since spring break, do you still think I am disgusting for being gay and having romantic feelings toward you?  Do you regret becoming friends on that swingset years ago?"  Will needed to know these answers to continue.

"Wow, you really picked some doozies to answer.  I will tell you everything you want to know, but I need to know something from you first."  Mike knew answering Will's questions would reveal some facts about himself that Will could use to irrevocably damage Mike.

Ok Mike I will be open to answering some question you have."  Will wanted to scream at Mike about the bad things he did to Will, but decided to be calm instead.  Will realizes Mike is putting forth an effort.

"Will, do you still care about me as a person, as a friend?  Do you even want to be friends anymore after all the time and distance between us?"  Mike asked softly, almost shyly like he was preparing himself for the backlash.

"Mike, after everything we went through and experienced together I still care about you, more than you realize.  As far as wanting to be friends again, there are times I don't ever want to see you again, but overall I want to be your friend again.  We have issues to work through but we have too much history together to throw us away."  Will was anxious putting himself out on the limb since Mike could cut it down.

"To answer the second part, I never regretted asking you to be my friend Will, never.  Not even with all the Upside Down stuff.  I know you blame yourself for getting us involved but it isn't your fault.  It never was.  I would still ask you if I knew what I know now."  Mike wasn't more sure of anything than the statement he just made.

"I know I didn't directly cause the Upside Down issues but your lives would of been so much better if I wasn't part of the Party.  Max wouldn't of been in the coma, Lucas wouldn't have been so sad she was, and Dustin wouldn't of tried to end it.  Your sister and all your lives would of been happier with less trouble."  Will felt bad over everyone's suffering because they were associated with him.

"Are you joking Will?  All our lives might of been easier but they certainly would not of been 'better'  by any means.  We enjoyed each others company and I think as a group we matured and grew up more quickly.  You once said I was the heart of the group.  If I was the heart you were the glue that held us all together.  I know when you and El left to go to California the whole Party started to fall apart.  I felt lost, like a piece of me was missing.  The Party all went their seperate ways and if you were here at the time, you would of kept us all together.  Your selfless nature would of been supporting our new interests, and you would of busted your butt to make sure we hung around with each other and not allowed us to drift apart.  You always sell yourself short and it sucks.  You are important Will."  Mike's voice was starting to waver because he felt strongly about Will.

"We were so angry you went into the Upside Down alone and not told us about your plans.  It wasn't because we wanted glory, it was because your death would of destroyed us as individuals and as a Party."  Will cut Mike off.

"Max told me this same stuff when I came back here."  Mike looked intently at Will to get more info.

"What did she say exactly?"

"She said that my death would of emotionally gutted the Party and that I have no right to end my life because my death affects all of you.  She thought I should tell the Party any plans or thoughts I have about sacrificing or ending my life."