Sad Peter parker

Two

Trigger warning: self harm,suicidal thoughts.

I woke up from Harry falling out of bed

„Are you okay?" I asked with a worried voice

„Yeah it happens" he stayed up

„At least I'm full awake now" he laughed

I had to smile a bit it was the first time in a long time I actually smiled and not forced it.

"Wanna get breakfast together?" he asked while changing his clothes I looked away

„Sure let me just change" I grapped some clothes and ran to the bathroom

i looked in the mirror I hold a razor blade of my pocket.

It all started because of flash then uncle Ben died then my dad died and it turned out worse when aunt may died.

A voice in my head spoke to me

Do it come on you know it's feels good
You deserve it
Dad is dead because of you
May died because of you
Everyone dies because of you

I hold the blade to my wrist

Do it
Your useless
No one cares
No one knows you anyway nobody would miss you when your gone

No i say to myself crying

Do it!

I silce my wrist open. I saw the blood dripping on the floor I toke some tissue and hold it against the wound

„what have I done?" I asked myself when I hear a knock on the door

"peter you okay in there?" it was Harry he sounded worried

"Yeah I'm almost done one second" I changed into a hoodie and a jeans. I put a tissue on the wound so it wouldn't came to show on my hoodie

I opened the door I saw Harry sitting there on the floor he looked up at me with a worried look

„You okay?" he asked again and stayed up

„Yes" I lied

Then we went down the cafeteria for breakfast
I wasn't really hungry so I just eat a bit Salat
Harry had pancakes

"So... are you sure you're Peter Benjamin Parker?" he asked while slicing his pancakes in half

I didn't told him my middle name? How does he knows it?

"Yeah I'm sure...and how do you my middle name? I didn't tell you? And you forgot the stark"

"Well you know I know Peter Parker and he looks different then you he is my best friend even when I tried to kill him and when I sacrificed myself for him I was send here and I don't know how to come back to my unvierse maybe you could help me?" He asked

"Oh...so you just want my help? You don't want to be friends or anything?"

"What? no! Peter you got me wrong I wouldn't just use you I promise"

"I know you Peter he told me he forgive you for trying to kill him so I help but I need time the one that could help probably doesn't know me anymore"