Sad Peter parker

Six

Tw: trying to commit sucide

When I searched for Ned I saw some person I thought I wouldn't see anymore I just can hope he doesn't remeber me it was flash and I think he saw me

Shit

"Hey!Penis Parker!" he shouted at me and walked my way

Great even he knows who I am at least he doesn't know I'm Spider-Man

"What do you want flash?" I asked walking backwards away from him

"You're here they let you in into the M.I.T?" He stepped Torwards me

"Yes they let me in" I said still walking. Backward but soon I was at a wall

Shit

"That's a surprise you're a freak they let freaks in the M.I.T?"

"Just shut the fuck up" I shouted at him immediately regretting it

I'm in trouble

"What did you say?" He asked in anger

"I..i'm sor-ry" I stuttered

But it was to late for an apology I mean he don't even care that I apologize he never did he just beat me up instead  flash punches me in my face but before he could do more I kicked him in the nuts I know I would regret it later but at the moment I don't care

"you reget this Parker" flash said as I ran away

I put my hoodie up and hide my face

I saw Ned I walked towards him okay this was easy just hide your face from him and introduce yourself

"Hey uhm" I began

Ned turned around and I think he recognized me

"Peter?" He asked

Guess the introduce part isn't necessary anymore

but like that was easier then I thought that's weird I should go to Dr strange. They shouldn't know me. But what if Dr stange doesn't remember me? I just let it be how it is for now. But I have to go to him anyway because of Harry and Gwen but better at a later time I'm not ready yet

"You remember me? I asked

"Of course I do"

Well then my work here is done

"Oh uhm okay cool" I ran away to my room before he could say something else Harry was in there I jumped in my bed

"What the hell happened to you?" He asked

"People" I said

I sat on the edge of the bed immediately regretting it

"Peter what's on your face?" Harry asked

Oh fuck no he can't know about flash. He will kill him.

shit

"Uhm...makeup?" I made up a lie was this a good lie? I mean no why should I make me a black eye with make up? this wouldn't make sense and I could see it on Harry face he didn't believe me either

"Peter tell me truth...please"

"Uh I got in a fight"

"With flash wasn't it?" He said

What? How does he know flash what I'm so confused

"How do you know who flash is?" I asked him confused

"In our unvierse we had a flash to and he beat my Peter up too I tried to stop flash but yeah uh wasn't always strong enough and got beaten up but that's not important just...take care"

"Oh I'm sorry for you and yeah uh flash did that...please don't tell him I told you that shit I shouldn't have said this"

I mean I derserved this I shouted i was mean so yeah maybe I derserved this. No. I definitely derserved it shit I shouldn't have kicked him in the nuts this will have conqences fuck he's gonna kill them and then me fuck what did I do? I'm so stupid but I didn't thought of anything at that moment just that I wanted to escape him even though it's impossible soon or later he find me and hurt me. Again.

"Peter it's okay i won't but. Can I kill him?" Harry said

"No that's iilegal"

I mean he did pretty stuff iilegal stuff to me too but his dad's a lawyer I mean my dad is iron man but I won't take any risk so I'm just gonna get trough flash moods and beats up and what else he so do to me

"Well  I'm pretty sure that what he did to you is iilegal too"

"Yeah but his dad is a lawyer soo"

"The law won't stop me or that his dad is a lawyer!"

"Harry no it's dangerous" I said

"Ugh I hate him"

"Yeah me too..."

I'm sorry for peter2 I just can hope he didn't experience all the same I did and flash just beated him up and nothing more...

I  saw flash he still has such an affect of myself why am I so scared of him? I'm Spider-Man I shouldn't be scared of anything and was all much seeing him when I see his face I remember what he did to me all this years I just don't want to remember it anymore I just don't

I went to the bathroom and was searching for a razor or anything sharp enough to cut my skin. I know I shouldn't do it but it just felt so good then I forgot everything for a short moment. But harry...He will be mad

You deserve it anyway
You deserve the pain
You deserved what flash was doing to you all this years
Your derserve the black eye
You're a burden  to everyone
Just kill yourself

I was near tears I found my blade and hold it against my wrist

What are you waiting for?
Cut yourself
Or even better
Kill yourself !

This thought were right I derserved to be bullied and worse by flash I deserved the pain I derserved the black eye I had because of him and I am a burden to everyone they all have to worry about me so I guess if I'm not here anymore they have something less to worry about I just bring dead to them so maybe if I'm not here anymore they will be less dead people

I cut my wirst deeper than last time and then I did the same on the other one I felt dizzy soon after I did that

I heard a Knock of the door

"Peter?" Harry asked and I panicked shit shit
I put tissues on the wound i hope it will help Harry kicked down the door he saw me sitting on the floor blood drips out of my wrist and I felt like I pass out every second

"Peter? Stay with me okay? I will call an ambulance"
He hold his phone out and called an ambulance he came to me and hold me in his arms I think I saw a tear rolling down from his face
"It will be okay...You will be okay you" he said more to himself then to me  

I felt bad I hurted Harry stupid me how could I do that?

"Harry? I don't feel so good"  was the last thing i said before passing out