Sad Peter parker

Four

I woke up in Harry's bed. This time I felt off his bed. He turned around me

"You okay?" He asked me and handed me his hand

"I think your bed is cursed or something"  I said as I toke his hand and sat on the bed again.

Maybe it's because he is from another universe and thats how to pay for it or something

I made a Pause from Spider-Man since I was at college. I just couldn't deal with it it affects my mental health in a bad way. But I feel guilty I mean the people need a Spider-Man don't they? I think I should be Spider-Man again.

"Peter... we need to talk about it" Harry interrupted my thoughts

No
No
No
Just no

"Peter?" Harry asked when I was silent for four minutes

"Yeah?"

"Why did you start it?"

"I don't know it started when  I had a bully named flash and then uncle Ben died I couldn't save him I was to  slow then the blip and when dad died...then my aunt died and no one know that I existed or so I thought and I had no one left so it got just worse and worse I just needed to feel something I needed to know that I'm still alive that I'm still here" I said nearly breaking into tears

Why do I tell him all that? He hates me now  doesn't he? maybe I shouldn't have said that.. I shouldn't share so much with him. I just knew him for like 4 days why do I trust him so much? Maybe because I don't have any one left except happy and Harry.

Maybe because I know that peter2 trusted him too even though he tried to kill peter2

Harry erased my thoughts "it's okay to cry in the beginning it will be bad it will be most bad days but when you let me help you you can defeat it... well I can help you live with it and then there will be mostly good days of course there will be bad days too but less. Let me help you peter"

"Why do you care so much?"

I mean he just knows me for 4 days? Why does he care? He don't know me for so long. Sure he has his own Peter but I mean I'm not him I'm me and we different I think

He doesn't
He's just playing with you

I  tried to ignore the thoughts

"Because I don't want anyone especially my friends to feel like this I regret so much i regret trying to kill my Peter just because he killed my dad I'm mean I forgave him Peter i didn't told you the whole true"

"What?" I asked confused

"I said I sacrificed myself well I wanted to but Peter he just pushed me away and venom kill him i was so smashed by this that I didn't noticed venom coming after me eventually I didn't care too  then there was a light and I was here I couldn't save Peter I knew he wanted to die but I tried helping him but I failed he's dead now and I can't do anything thing about it but maybe if you could sent me back to my unvierse the time we fight venom and maybe no one of us well die this time... I tried to find my Peter but I couldn't I guess he isn't in this universe anymore

"Oh that he's dead? Oh I'm sorry for you Harry I didn't know dr strange send the peters back to their universe sure I help you peter's my brother? I think it whatever it is called when you meet another you anyway thanks for telling me the truth I appreciate it"

"Thank you Peter"

The voice came back again

Harry isn't your friend
He just feels sorry you don't have anyone anymore
He doesn't even like you
He will be in danger. You will bring him danger.
He just uses you anyway