Sad Peter parker

Twenty-three

Tw: sa,self harm

I was happy for a Short Time I knew it won't last long it never did but it was a nice time while it lasted I decided talk to dad about it Bucky said i had to  tell him one day and today was that day

I walked into the living room where dad and Bruce we're sitting starting at the tv which wasn't on for some reason. "Dad?" I asked

"yes?"

"Can I talk to you?"

"of course yes"

"I see you later tony" Bruce said and left the room I sat down next to dad

I got this I tell him flash won't hurt me he's dead he can't do anything to me. It's just an hallucination.

"I can still hurt you even when I'm dead and just a hallucination just not physically but emotionally and mentally I can in fact still hurt you" flash appeared before my eyes I closed my eyes and breathe in and out while thinking about a good memory with my family just like Bucky thaugt me then I opened my eyes again and flash was gone again. But not for ever.

"Pete?" Dad asked

"Uhm so I already talked to Bucky about this he said I have to tell you too some day and today I'm gonna do it" I said

"uhm okay?" He looked confused

"just listen"

"okay"

„flash did terrible things to me as you might now but what you don't know that flash  threatened me into a realtionship with him he said if I don't go with him he kill aunt may,ned and mj! So I didn't had a chance then to „date" him and now where he is dead I see him I know it's not real but yeah I too hear his voice but that was before his dead too he can't leave me alone he too did some other terrible things that I haven't told you..." I said looking at the floor

dad looked at me his face turned angry but worried too "he threatened you? This bitch!"

"Yeah I try to forget about it he did some terrifiyng things to me there too"

''did he toc-''

I interrupted him  „like I said he did some very terrible things to me other harmless than others " I said I don't want to remember me at that

he nodded  „ that bitch I hope he's smore in hell"

"yeah and when I see him I do something that Bucky taught me it helped me a lot"

"Pete you got to be honest with me what is he telling you?"

"Uh uhm just the usual stuff that no one cares about me and I'm a disappointment" I scratched my arm

why do I tell him all that? I shouldn't tell him he thinks I'm weak now doesn't he? I'm so stupid

Flashes voices in my head began to get louder once again

Yeah you are stupid
Your weak
You shouldn't tell him
He now think you weak
Your embarrassing him
He doesn't care about you
He just pretends he do
Flash was right
You are a disappointment

"Kid listen you're Not a disappointment okay? I'm so proud of you,mom is proud of you we love you all you got better I'm proud to call you my son I care so much about you and it hurts seeing you like this I just wish I could help you and make flash go away and his voice in your head too you're so strong for holding on and telling me this I love you" he said like he really meant it and I belive him why shouldn't I? He just lied once and that was for keeping me save I trust him