Sad Peter parker

Twenty seven

„Hello Peter" Harry came into my room because it was Friday and Friday he always is in my room and we watch movies and tv shows.

I like Fridays

"how you doing?" I asked him

" I think Gwen plans something but I can't proof it but I miss you" he sat down

Harry Gwen and mj are in college again since aunt Nat and dad did in fact kill flash's dad they are save Gwen and Harry are going to their homes in a few weeks I miss them already. But I can't go to college anymore my mental health wouldn't afford it also dad is scared because it's far Away and and when something happens he can't come immediately I miss being Harry's roommate and being near my friends.

„I miss you too"

„how are you?" he asked

I don't want to lie to him but I also don't want him to be worried about me he should concentrate on college also he isn't here for long anyway i can handle my problem alone or ignore it in either way he doesn't need to know but he helped me maybe I should tell him? No he just will think I'm weak and I'm being annoying and hate me.

„I'm fine I don't see him anymore" I lied straight into his face

I actually see him since the dream again and bucky's method just wouldn't work he just wouldn't fucking disappear

"you sure?" harry asked with a sceptical look torwards me

"uhm don't worry" I mumbled

"tell me if you want okay?"

"Okay" I nodded

"what do you want to do babe?"

What the actual fuck did he just call me? That's brings back bad memories

"D-don't c-call m-me that" I stuttered

"I'm so sorry it was an accident I thought you were my Peter- my bad I- I'm so fucking stupid" Harry put his face in his hands

Right now I can't help him  because i  got a flashback again

Flashback begin

I was at flash place we watched something on his laptop when he closed it and put it away and looked at me and he kissed me I kissed back this time because I don't want to get hit with his belt again.

"it's time for dinner" he said I nodded we went to the kitchen flash made pasta and put a plate with it in front of me „eat" he ordered but I just stared at it I wasn't hungry I didn't want to eat I just started at it

After 5 minutes where I just starred at the food flash spoke again „what is it babe? You don't like my food?" he asked

"n-no its n-not like that"

"then eat" he ordered

"I can't" I looked up at him his face turned angry

"yes,yes you can parker"

Oh oh I'm in trouble he called me after my last name

He stood up and walked torwards me he put the pasta on the fork „open wide up babe"

"p-please"  I begged him

"open up Parker" He yelled annoyed and grabbed after my hair it hurt I forced to open my mouth he put the pasta in my mouth and closed it „swallow" he ordered so I did „it wasn't this bad was it? now we do this until the whole plate is empty"