Sad Peter parker

Sixteen

Tw: eating disorder,self harm

"so what's the plan?" I asked as we were watching Brooklyn nine nine in the living room

"we hide and protect you friends and I could beat that flash guy up" Bucky suggested who was eating popcorn again I mean he could easily do that he even could kill him i know that but I don't want him to get in prison either

"but that's illegal" I said

"he killed Ned I'm pretty sure that's illegal too" mj said

I mean she was right wait why isn't he in prison he killed a fucking person I bet his dad saved him from going there

"Flash das saved him from prison didn't he?" I  asked

"Yup like he always saves flash from conqences for his actions" mj said

"Of course I hate him"

"Belive me we all do" Harry said

"so we go there and talk to his dad" Dad said

I tried it a few times but yeah he always believed his son and I was the one lying and being in trouble if I didn't do what flash said so yeah flash dad isn't the nicest guy either

"It only will get things worse for us" I said

i know it will just get worse and worse until all are dead and only i'm left alone again. And maybe he will kill me too after he had enough „fun" with me. but I don't care if he kills me if he lets my family and friends live. I love them. I would die for them.

"I will talk to him no discussion" dad said and left the room

It won't change anything but I can't discuss with dad

I was in my room with Harry, Gwen and mj playing monopoly mj is winning, Harry is still in prison, Gwen is poor and I lost a lot of money when dad came in

"what you guys doing?" He asked

"monopoly" I said

"Okay could you all stop playing for a moment and listen to me" he said we all looked up at him with confused looks

"it's about flash" he said and my mood drops from happy to afraid

"what-what did he said?" I asked

dad sat down on my desk chair  „well this bastard said he don't belive it and that I lie like my son god i could kill him i could fucking rip his flesh out with my teeth he's no better than his son"

I ran out of the room  I can't believe he win's and won't go to prison there will not be justice for Ned ever and if flash father talk to him I knew I would be in big trouble and danger around me  

Maybe it's time to bring aunt Nat back but I just don't know how I have to go to Harvey but right now I have to do something else...

„I have to go" I said and ran out before any of them could possibly stop me.

I was at a pharmacy I went inside and looked at the razors blades I could buy them I thought maybe then i feel better but then they all would be mad at me the voice in my head got louder

Buy them
You know it feels good
You derserve it
They in danger because of you stupidity
Go on do it!

I buyed them and I toke the blades out and hide them in my pockets then I went back home

they were eating dinner

"hey Peter you want some?" Bucky pointed of the pizza in front of him