Sad Peter parker

Thirteen

Someone knocked on the door "You friends are here"  dad said from outside of the door

"I'm coming" i said and went to the living room

"hey" they both said

"dad can we go outside?" I asked

dad looked at  his watch and then at me "be home at 7pm"

i nodded

"have fun" dad shouted when we left the house

We went to a bench in a park we sat down

"I summoned Steve rogers from
The death" I said out of nowhere

Ned mouth dropped "I'm sorry you did what?"

"Summoned Steve rogers from the death with nothing but swear words" I repeated

"I'm so proud of you"mj cried but it wasn't because she is sad it was because she was proud of me or just pretend it

"Thanks" I said

I hope i can somehow summon aunt Nat from
The death as well but It might be a bit more complicated and dangerous and I promised it not to do it without Harvey so I have to wait sadly it just works in avengers and not aunt may or uncle Ben well I guess I take what I have it's still a lot rasing people from the dead

"okay so what should we do?" Mj asked

"we could go to the movies" Ned assumed

"yeah they show Star Wars there" i Said and I had money not much but enough for the movies  we went there

We were nearly on the cinema when I stopped walking

"peter?" Mj asked but I couldn't say anything I saw flash walking torwards me he had a black eye so Harry and Gwen did beat him up I thought I swallowed he grapped me by my neck fuck I'm in big fucking trouble

"you know what this means! Freak! He said  and throwed me at the wall roughly "that's for kicking me in my nuts" flash said and before anyone of us could say anything he was gone shit he's going to kill Harry,Gwen,my dad Ned,mj and Bucky and more

"You kicked flash nuts? I was never so proud of you like I am now" mj hugged me I returned it before she let go "whoever gave him that black eye derserve an award"

I couldn't think what just happened? Wait do i have some broken bones let me check...no I don't good it will just leave bruises

It was to much I couldn't be here anymore what if he comes back? And does something more and hurt Ned and mj too while he's at it? No I won't let that happend I have to go for their safety

"I- I have to go" I said

"Peter what was this about?" Mj asked

"you know flash he uh it's alright nothing to worry about" I lied they looked at each other and then at me like they don't belive me

"tell us the truth we can help" Ned said

"I have to go sorry" I said and ran away the yelled my name but I ignore it I texted Harry  and Gwen I asked if  they were okay they both said they were but I go to them anyway I can't let flash hurt them Too

I knocked on the door of Harry's and my room he opened it Gwen was there too for some reason I don't know.

"what are you doing here?" Harry asked and let me in

"I was worried uh flash came to me he's gonna kill everyone I love" I said my whole body was shaking

"calm down he won't I call you dad okay?" He said

"Peter he can't hurt you here he can't hurt anyone they the avengers he's just a teenager and we won't die" Gwen tried to calm me down it worked a bit but not for long

I mean she's right they are the avgemrs and flash he is just a teenager they beat him right? But why don't I believe that. Besides if harry calls  my dad what should dad do? If he kill flash he will end up in prison leaving me alone again he promised me he won't leave me again

"How can you so sure Gwen? people around me die all the time so there's a chance and yes he is just a stupid teenager but I'm Spider-Man still I just couldn't fight him because I was to freaking scared what would have happened if I lost? He would kill everyone I care about and then me but not before he has enough "fun" with me I wish he never existed I was I wouldn't be scared of anything it here I am afraid of flash and the green teletubby and the teletubbies in general guess I'm no superhero I'm just a lucky nerd guy who got bit by a spider and has superpowers now" I laughed hysterically

"Peter...it's okay to be afraid everyone is scared of something even superheros and don't say you're aren't one you saved the whole world you saved people you're a superhero and it might has been luck that you got bit and didn't die but it was a gift remember? With great power comes great responsibility? Sometimes it might. Be a curse but hey at least you're still alive? Sorry I....what I mean is that flash a douchbag and we will kill him" Gwen said

"Thanks? Yeah I remember and I guess you're right I'm still alive...well I hope so.... Anyway if you fail to kill him the first time he's gonna you both and I don't want you guys to die...again.

"Yeah well we should have a plan before" Harry said

"No shit Sherlock" Gwen replied

"Anyway peter I should call you dad he probably don't know you here I am right?"

"you're right but Please don't call my dad he thinks I'm with mj and Ned and I was but uh then flash came and I saw you beat him up I was worried for you both that you were hurt too" I said

"so you just leave mj and Ned standing behind?" He asked   Gwen hit his back head "don't listen to him sometimes he don't know what he's saying and spaeks before thinking"

Gwen is right but after Harry said it I couldn't stop think about it

fuck I'm such a bad friend I should tell them I just left them but I mean it was for their safety right? But why do I feel so guilty? It doesn't make sense

Yeah you did
You left you friends because of a boy  you know for a few weeks
And for Gwen you barely know her
You don't deserve them
So stupid
You're lying to them
You're a bad friend

I was shaking more how could I lie to them? I knew them for ages and I fucking lie to them I'm such a loser

"peter?" Harry asked I looked up I controlled myself so I wouldn't shake anymore

"I-yeah I leaved them behind and I'm a bad friend I don't derserve them" I said

"no don't say that you were scared you didn't knew what to do and you didn't want them to be in danger you're a good friend I'm sorry for saying this Gwen is right i speak before thinking sometimes" he said

"Harry's finally right Peter don't listen to that voice in your head it just wants you bad try ignoring it when this doesn't help distract yourself with something like video games. The voice tells you lies don't belive it you're the best friend someone can have so don't even think your a bad friend because you're not you're the best friend" gwen said

Don't listen to her
She's lying
You're a bad friend

I know the voice lying but maybe it's half true? I don't Know maybe I should try ignoring it like gwen said and distract myself with video games maybe then I feel better...

"Thanks Gwen I try"

"I  still have to call you dad now" harry said

I'm going to be in trouble in so much trouble he's gonnna be mad at me for not telling him