Sad Peter parker

Twenty two

Evertime I saw flash I did the thing Bucky thought me it worked most of the times but when it didn't flash would yell at me because I told Bucky about that he threatened me into a realtionship with him I didn't told dad about it I don't want him to worry about me I know I should tell him I didn't told Harrr,Gwen or even mj about it because they all have their on lives Gwen and Harry won't be here for long anyway and mj I don't want her to worry about me neither of them should be worried about me.

Gwen and mj had their on sleepover so did Harry and I it will be fun. I don't hope for anything I know he has Peter2 and Dr strange is nearly on bringing them here again. Or sending them back since he said he don't want any more villains coming trough. So  everyday could be my last day with Harry and Gwen.

"Pettteeeerr" Harry shouted and stole my blanket

"what?" I asked confused looking up  at him

"I'm bored let's watch something"

"your boring" i said 

he put out an Uno revenge card from his pocket

"you didn't-"

"yes,yes I did now get the laptop please" he said

I pulled out an uno revenge card out of my sleeve "never mess with Spider-Man you never knew what he got up his sleeve" I laughed

"we're so funny" Harry said

I agreed we are funny  we laughed a little more before we stopped

"I get the laptop if I can decide what we watch" Harry said

"fine with me" I said Harry got the laptop and put on maze runner

"I like your taste it's the same as mine" I said when we were at the scene were Thomas and newt nearly kissed each other yes I ship newtmas

"shh maybe they kiss this time" Harry said putting a finger to his mouth

"I watched the movie over ten times and they never kissed I'm a bit mad at that"

"me too" Harry said and looked at me "maybe we could make or own kiss?" He suggested my heart began to beat faster did Harry just asked me if he could kiss me? Does this happen for real? Or am I just dreaming? What about his Peter? Aren't they like together? Wouldn't that be cheating?

„What about your Peter?"  I asked

„Oh yeah well....uh I sometimes forget I was so long here that I forgot about him sometimes must be some effect of this whole other unviserul thing. I just...nevermind i don't want to hurt you feelings or cheat on my Peter? Sorry I asked you won't happen again just forgot you're not mine peter I'm so sorry" he scratched his neck in ashamed.

Oh....I get it he's just he like me other me more....wait...am I seriously jealous of me? Never thought that would happend. But here am I.But I get it I'm not mad at Harry I'm not even hurt I unterstand...

„Oh yeah I totally get it it's fine uh just  nevermind I'm fine I unterstand you like him better- oh I mean it's okay I'm not jealous....I mean if you don't want to kiss me anymore it's okay I wouldn't cheat on me too wait what did I say okay I should stop talking now sorry" I said stopping myself before I speak something out that would be stupid and that I couldn't take back.

„It's okay Peter I have to figure something out alright I just miss him oh I'm so sorry I shouldn't asked you this this was so stupid" Harry hit his head with his arms over and over again.

I hold his arms „Hey Harry no problem just don't hurt yourself please alright?"

„Yeah okay just let's wach the Sorch tails" he nodded and stopped hitting himself

„Without the scene where winston dies?"

„of course I can't watch death anymore"

„Me neither Peter me neither..."

...

We were on watching the death cure we watched the scence where Thomas and newt fight because newt begs him to kill him we closed the laptop and looked each other  just then Bucky walked in "oh sorry I thought this was Sams room" he said and closed the door again

„Yeah not gonna watch newt die" I said

„Me neither"

I can live with that we're just friends it's like with yeah okay I still have a bit feeling for him but I get it he will not be here forever or? He will get back to his universe with peter2 and Gwen will get back to hers with hers Peter I mean I will miss them but I just want them to be happy so I can live with that if that's what they want. I still have mj and Harvey I will be fine. Shit Harvey I promised him to prank someone well he has to wait. For a little longer  because I'm to lazy to stay up or do anything at all.

this day wasn't perfect but it made fun and that's a lot I  don't see flash very often anymore the voice was still there but I began to deafeat it I stopped self  harming  all seemed so perfect and happy but then again I'm Spider-Man and have Peter luck so it won't last long