Sad Peter parker

Twenty one

Two months later...

So apparently dr strange still  need some time to bring the other peters back he means it is complicated and also that he doesn't want the villans to come back here. I unterstand that and I'm okay with that at least when no one dies to much dead happened already I can't take anyone else dying.

I couldn't hide it anymore  flash was everywhere I go college,home I saw him all the time and now it's worse I can't hide it anymore I feel like I'm dying inside  and the voice flashes voice in my head won't stop either

"please tell me what's wrong kid" dad  said he noticed something was wrong with me I could feel that at his Look the look he only got when he was worried

"nothing" I lied

"I saw you talk to someone who weren't there... please tell me the truth"

"I talked to Harry on the phone" I tried to call myself out of this but it was hopeless

"I had your phone there you left it in the living room please stop lying" he said 

flash voice popped up

You lie to your own father
How disappointing
You should be ashamed of yourself
He does everything for you and you lie to him?
You don't derverse  anyone

Flash was now standing in font of me "see? I was right you will always be a disappointment you deserved it and you back scar will remember you everyday that your nothing than a fucking disappointment" he said and he was right I am a disappointment I lied to my own father I lied to all of them for a long time I don't derserve them I'm a fucking disappointment it would be better if I'm not here anymore.

"Pete do you hear me?" Dad asked but I didn't listen to anything he said I just concentrate on flash maybe if I stare at him long enough he will disappear even though I knew this won't work it never did.

"Pete come on tell me what's wrong please I'm worried about you we all are" he cried

"I'm sorry" I hugged him

"we just want to help you please let us help you" he said and hugged me back

"but you can't dad you can't help me with it no one can" I said I have to deal with it myself like I did all the years ago

„Peter tony told me something's up with you he thinks if I talk to you you might tell me what's wrong" Bucky said entering the room with French fries at least he is honest with me at least he doesn't lie that's why I like him that why he is my favorite uncle

"it's all fine" I lied

I could see flash behind  Bucky smirking "liar" he said with his lips I just ignore it

Bucky gave me a worried look "Peter I know there's something okay? I can tell something's up with you and if you don't want to tell me what it is it's fine with me but please tell somebody what's troubling you or it eats you up trust me I know how that feels and I don't want you too feel the same way I once did " he said sitting down on my bed handing me a French fry which I toke and eat.

"I'm sorry uncle Bucky I will tell someone maybe I tell you but then please don't be mad" I said

I could tell it Harry but he won't be here always also he has enough going on in his own life.

"I won't I promise" he said and eat a French fry

I trust him that's why I told him everything I told him about what flash did  to me that he stabbed, tortured,nearly killed me,hold a gun to me, carved the words in my skin, and the worse stuff, and I told him that I hear his voice and see him I even told him what i didn't told another soul about he was the first one to know that flash and I were couple but like you can't say that because he threatened me if I don't go with him he kill aunt may,Ned and mj at that time i didn't knew the avengers and didn't know tony stark was my biological dad and pepper Potts was my biological mom and that Harvey was my brother biological too...i think it was never proven. so I had no other choice and one day I could stand up against him but at that point it just got worse. I don't want to say anything else about it at this moment...