ISSUES 2 II OUTERBANKS S3/S4

grumpy kook and dirty pogue

"Home sweet home, best and worst memories all at once."

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It feels weird to be back at Tanneyhill when it's empty. It used to be filled with so much joy and love when I was younger. I remember Sarah and I playing with dolls here and babysitting Wheezie as I grew older. I can still see Rafe and I sneaking around at the beginning of our relationship. 

God, we used be so in love once. I would have never believed that I'd push him off his own boat and steal it. I also never thought I'd talk to him again a few months ago. Feelings change and so do people but the memories.. they stay.

"Rafe, Sarah could see us any minute", I giggle as he kisses me in the middle of the entrance as soon as his dad and Rose have left for their vacation. "I don't care about her. I just know that dad and Rose have left and we've got the house for themselves", he grins back at me placing his arm around my waist. 

Sarah would spend the weekend with Topper and his family and Wheezie sleeps at a friend's house. We've got Tanneyhill all for ourselves. Rafe and I didn't leave each other's side for a whole weekend. We took a shower together, we ate all our meals at the same time which we've cooked together, we went on walks just the two of us. Of course, we threw a party together.

It's crazy how one memory could change the way I feel about somehow. Well, only for the moment. I've got no idea what would happen if Rafe and I ever met again. But for now, I'll enjoy showering and sleeping in an actual bed. I'm used to laying on the beach by now so Rafe's bed is a great change. 

I don't know if Sarah comes back here or immediately stops by at the chateau so I wanted her bed to be free in case she sleeps here. Ward and dad are not here so it feels a lot more safe. When I put off my clothes and change into one of Rafe's shirts, I notice that I've dropped something. As I knee down to realize it's JJ's ring.. the one he gifted me. I smile as my heart fills itself up with love by the thought of him. He'll be back tomorrow, I can feel it.

I walk up to the sound of the door. Remembering that no one's supposed to be here, I stand up slowly and quietly to check who it could be. As I walk out of Rafe's room I see blonde hairs before the door to Sarah's room closes. This must be Sarah, she's back. Without knocking the door I enter her room just for her to turn around shocked. 

"God, Iz, you frightened me", Sarah breaths in and out but laughs eventually and runs up to me for a hug, "We didn't have a lot of time to talk on the boat. Thanks for leaving with John B, I'd be a lot more worried if he went alone." "Of course, S", I smile at her, "You're packing?" 

"Yes. JJ dropped me off at the chateau so now I'm packing some clothes to stay with John B. Why are you even here?", Sarah asks me confused. "JJ wasn't at his place so I slept here", I tell her but stop myself when we hear the main door and a man clearing his throat. Rafe. "Shit, we need to leave", Sarah whispers. 

"You go first, I'll come afterwards if he sees me", I recommend and we quickly but quietly go downstairs. It's interesting to hear Rafe speaking of the cross so Sarah and I stop for a second when we're sure that he can't hear us. At least we find out what they plan is concerning the cross. We still have a chance to get it back. 

When we feel like he's more distracted again, we follow him to the entrance but chose the door at the side. "Go", I whisper to Sarah so in case Rafe sees one of us it'd be me. She gives me an unsure look but I can persuade her silently. Sarah's out the door and I'm about to follow but.. "Yes, dad", Rafe ends his call walking back into the house, "Bella." 

I turn around like a little child that had been caught during a game. "Welcome back home, Rafe", I smile at him innocently. "Welcome back home", he repeats raising his voice, "You say welcome back home after pushing me off my own boat and stealing it?!" 

"So you're angry, okay", I nod smiling at him shyly, "Listen, I.. I wouldn't have done it if I had known that you were in danger but you weren't. They didn't want to catch you. They were hunting the pogues and I and you said you wouldn't help them so-" 

"So you thought why not push the one person off the boat who was there with you and you had always been there for you just to rescue some dirty pogues", Rafe complains loudly. I mean.. I understand him. I just wish we could skip this part of being mad and go back to helping each other. 

"I've showered so your favorite pogue isn't dirty anymore", I joke grinning at him innocently, "I'd be in for a hug?" The look on Rafe's face changes from angry to annoyed. "God I hate how you play with me, Bella", Rafe groans but gives in and walks closer to hug me, "And you're not a damn pogue. You're the fucking kook princess, got it?" 

"Are you less grumpy if I say yes?", I chuckle giving in and even feel a tear running down my cheek. I've ignored the worry that I've felt when he wasn't around. Thank god he's safe. I wouldn't have forgiven myself if Rafe got hurt because of me.

Rafe is actually busy so we agree to have a longer conversation tonight. This gives me time to stop by JJ's place. When I arrive at his house, I already hear his voice. Sounds like he's talking to someone. A female voice replies.. Kiara. I guess she slept over. I wouldn't want to walk back home if I was her. Her parents probably won't ever let her go again.