ISSUES 2 II OUTERBANKS S3/S4

part-time devil

"A bad father never has a good son."

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"Listen, I want a new start as well", Rafe admits as he's packed his bags of gold but his way is blocked by Ward, "Just not in Guadeloupe." "What?", dad gasps, "We've had a plan, Rafe. I've filled you in and you agreed. Our families in Guadeloupe." "Why would I want to start over there?" "Because we can't come back here, boy." 

"No, you can't come back here, dad, and you might have some issues, Harvey. But Bella and I? We're fine, got our people here, our home, okay? What I'm trying to say is that I no longer need you, dad. We're doing fine," Rafe claims. When Ward speaks up again it all happens really fast.. Rafe pushing his dad against the wall, my dad pushing him back. 

"What, do you want to beat me?", Rafe exclaims, "With a cane, dad? Come on, Harvey, just do it for him. Isabella should see what you're willing to do. After all that I've done for you." "You for us?", dad laughs loudly intensifiying the grip against his chest to make sure he can't step forward, "You're a boy, Rafe. I should have believed Dana when she said you wouldn't be good for my daughter. But what did I do? Believe you over and over again just like your dad did. What did you do? Get us in trouble. Ward's biggest mistake was to gift you freedom when you're not a tiny bit thankful. I knew that Luke's son is a disaster but you.. you're not going to be around Isabella anymore." 

Having said that, dad loosens the grip on Rafe letting him walk past us. Rafe turns around when he reaches the door. "I'm going to sell my gold. My gold. I'm going to do whatever I want with it and you can't do anything about it. Got it? Go home, men. It's our time to shine." And gone he is.

Ward looks like he still needs a moment to calm down and I realize my dad is coming closer until he pulls me into his arms tightly. "Isabella", he sighs heavily, "God, I was so worried about you, especially when Rafe told me about Singh." What the hell is happening here? Rafe selling the gold, Ward and dad being back, them having this fight, my hugging me? 

"Where is mom?", I immediately asks when dad lets go of me. "You should calm down first, angel. Your mom's just fine", dad replies disappointedly but I couldn't care less. He tried to have Rafe kidnap me. "I want you to prove that she's fine", I tell him forcefully. "Isabella, who do you think I am?", dad gasps and he looks actually hurt, "I wouldn't hurt her." I couldn't care less for him being shocked. He failed as my dad. It wouldn't surprise me if he failed as a husband. 

"You've hurt me", I state bluntly. That's enough reason for me to be worried about mom. "Dana is fine, dear", Ward tries to help, "We went to Guadeloupe all together. Dana and Rose are still there taking care of the business. No one's hurt." "Don't be ridiculous, Isabella. We've been doing this for our children only. You can't escape this family just because you enjoy some days on the cut. You're throwing your life away." 

"No, dad, I was doing perfectly fine before you came back. We might share some DNA but we're not the same at all. I'm the pogue that you've been trying to hide so badly", I speak up in front of him making him look at me shocked. Does he really not understand what he's doing? How can he not see the toxic ways he uses to make me be the daughter he wants? He tried to force me onto an airplane, made me leave with them on the boat, tried to have Rafe bring me to Guadeloupe against my will. 

"Why would you want me be with you when you were the one to send away your seven year old daughter?", I whisper sadly and leave the room quickly before he can make me stop and stay. I don't want him to see how much it actually hurts me. Tears streaming down my cheeks.. tears that he doesn't deserve to see. He made me believe that everyone I love will leave me. I had a hard time finding out what it means but the pogues teached me the biggest lesson, I'm worth it.

"What's up?", Sarah asks me as we meet a few minutes before Anna's and Christian's party starts. "Your dad is back. Him and Rafe got into an argument before", I state as my voice shakes even more, "Mine is here as well." "Yeah right, he's at twelve o'clock", Sarah mumbles looking behind me so I follow her glance. There he is as if nothing had happened. It's not like Anna is mom's sister but of course he's here to celebrate with her and mom is in fucking Gouadeloupe. 

"I can't believe it. He's walking around as if nothing happened." "I know what you're thinking but let's just keep our distance tonight, alright?", Sarah suggests, "If they hear us talk about El dorado.." "Dad already knows about Singh", I agree nodding, "I never thought I'd quote JJ one day but let's deny everything tonight. Anna and Christian's party is supposed to be a good time for us." 

"Speaking of JJ.. do you think he's going to make a scene tonight? Kie, you and him all in one place.." "We're fine. JJ and I have been talking and we're honestly doing fine. Have you been talking to John B already? I'm not judging you but I need to get this heavy feeling of my chest." "I tried calling him but he wouldn't pick up. Guess his battery's empty or he doesn't use his phone at all. I mean when was the last time one of us checked any calls or Instagram? I haven't since dad tried to fly me to Nassau." "Now that you're saying it.. I didn't even realize that I wasn't using my phone for months. It felt so normal just to-" 

"Isabella", dad interrupts our conversation and turns to Sarah, "It's good to see you, Sarah. Wheezie told me to greet you. She can't wait to see you." Sarah looks at him speechless. It doesn't make sense. Why would he come here and talk about Wheezie when they could just fly her back to Kildare Island. Dad's freaking me out with his hypocritical behavior. "Yeah, me either", Sarah nods slowly, "I'll leave you two alone for a father-daughter conversation." There she goes leaving me alone with a part-time devil.