HIS PLAYBOY M-preg

CHAPTER 35 part 2.

This chapter is dedicated to: mhile_21

(BEWARE! NOT YET EDITED!)

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-AUSTIN

*Damnit!" I cursed when I woke up with a headache. It took me a minute before I realized kung nasaan ako.

Mabilis pa sa mabilis akong bumangon at patakbong lumabas ng kwarto. My heart beats so loudly inside my chest that I'm afraid any second it would burst inside. A lot of possibilities and scenario are running wild in my head kaya halos matumba ako sa pagmamadali. Kahit may mabangga ako ay wala na akong pakialam pa.

"Matt please don't leave me~" Paulit ulit kung sabi sa aking isipan.

He cannot leave me!! If that happens I will just kill myself! My life would be meaningless anyway. Hindi ko kaya

Nang makalapit na ako sa ICU ay bigla akong napatigil sa aking Nakita. May family and Matt's family are crying like someone has .......

Died.

"No!.....no!.......no!....It can't be" Kahit nangingig ang aking mga tuhod ay pilit akong lumapit sa kanila. I feel like I am about to get sick. My sister Andrea is the first one to see me. Patakbo nya akong niyakap ng mahigpit.

"K-kuya....Wala na sya" Umiiyak na Sabi nya saakin. Then and there I feel like my world starts to crumble. Agad namang lumapit si dad at si Aubrey at sabay nila akong niyakap. I didn't hugged them  back. My body won't move.

"Anak, please magpakatatag ka. Lakasan mo ang loob mo. Andito lang kami anak" While dad was saying that I looked at Matt's family. His parents are in the corner hugging each other both crying, while his sibling are doing the same also. Tinignan ko din si Zack but mabilis syang ng iwas ng tingin but I can clearly see that his eyes are red meaning kagagaling lang nya sa pag-iyak.

"W-what hap-happend? I-is Matt okay? Wala namang na-nangyari diba? " Tinignan ko si dad. "right dad?" While saying that I can't help but let my tears fall.

He can't leave me!

Dad looks me in the eyes with so much sadness and hurt then after he muttered "I am sorry  son" The words that left his mouth made me lose my balance. Mabuti nalang at akap akap ako ng aking mga kapatid.

No!.....no!....no!....nooooo! It can't be! They are all just joking! He can't leave me!! I scream in my head!

My body also start to shake violently and my tears won't stop from falling.

"Son listen! Please be strong! I know this is not an easy battle for you and Matt but always remember that we are here. Hindi ka namin iiwan! Kasama mo kami hanggang sa huli! You are not alone in this. Mahal na mahal ka namin ng mga kapatid mo. Just hold on anak please, mapapakatatag ka sana" Pakiusap ni dad pero lahat ng sinabi nya sakin ay wala akong maintindihan. Walang pumapasok sa utak ko. My head feels so empty just like myself.

I am breaking slowly and painfully.

Why it has to be like this? Why?

It hurts...It hurts so much

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I carefully held Matt's hand and brought it into my face. Lovingly I kissed it. How I miss to see his smile, to hear his laugh, to watch him get mad at me and do things that would make him happy.

How I wish I could turn back the time and rewrite things, maybe we would not be end like this.

"I-I miss you... I miss you fvcking much that I don't know if I could do this without you. Please don't leave me " I said pleadingly.

It's almost been a years since I met and knew him. Ever since that day when we crossed path on the bar I knew my life would change that he would have a big part of my life.

I remember after that night when something happens to us I really don't pay much attention to it thinking that he just like the others. I continued with my life being a manwhore, playboy a fucker but when I saw him again, something happens in myself that I don't know what. He suddenly captures my attention that it made me mad.

He made my blood boils ,made me mad and made me do things that I never did before and I hate him for that.

Never knew that one day I would just woke up and boom! I Feel hard for him. The man who vows to never fall in love just got his very first love.

Maybe it's his face? His smile? His annoying attitude? That made me fall in love with him? I would never know but one thing is for sure. Matt is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. The one I want to be the mother/father of my children and the one I want to grow old with.

So how can I do that when I am losing him? Pano ko tutumaparin Ang mga pangako ko sa kanya kung iiwan nya ako? I need him in my life. I don't know who I am without him!

Karma is really a bitch! I know I really do bad things before but sana naman hindi ganito. This is too much!

We already lose a baby ..our little angle and now Matt is on the brink of death.

I still remember what the doctor told me after I calm down a little from my breakdown.

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One of the doctors who attended Matt wanted to talked to alone inside his office after what happened. So I went with him and what he said next broke my world.

"I am very sorry for your lost Mr. Williams but we really did the best we can to  save both Matt and your children but the other baby did not make it. He was already dead inside his womb before we did the operation. We didn't know that he was carrying twins for the reason that the other baby was hiding. Lucky we save the other baby but she was very weak and small and premature so we need to monitor her 24/7 that means she needs to stay in the incubator for the time being" The doctor told me.

We lost a baby. Matt and I's baby. I lost a son. The one that I don't know existed until now.

My body suddenly go numb. I can't think straight nor I can move from where I was sitting. My head keep repeating his said.

"The other baby did not make it"

"He was already dead inside his womb before we did the operation"
It keeps repeating on my head.

"We also did the best we can to help Matt but unfortunately he had two cardiac arrest while we were doing the operation and he lost so much blood. His body shot down that lead him into coma. I am really sorry Mr. Williams  but it's really up to Matt now if he will fight this battle or not. But rest assured that we will not stop helping him... I know this is hard for all of you but I hope you will be ready incase something happens. Again I am very sorry for your lost" He added but I don't really understand or remember what he said ni hindi ko din alam kung pano ako napunta sa kwarto na ki na lalagyan ni Matt.

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I looked at his sleeping figure. Ang daming nakatusok na mga wires sa katawan nya. He looks so much different now but still he is the most beautiful man in my eyes till now.

"Please Matt ....please don't leave me..."