Dito at Ngayon

Chapter 1: Mr. Manloloko

"Babe, pag usapan naman natin oh. Ano bang ginawa kong mali?"

Here we go again.

"Wala nga! You didn't do anything wrong. It's not you, it's me. I've fallen out of love with you. Hindi na nagwowork tong relationship na ito para saken. So mas mabuti nang.. Magbreak na tayo."

Sa kakapaulit ulit ko nang pagsabi nito, I've memorized it already. Scripted na. And every time I say these lines, I have to pretend na nasasaktan ako. When I don't really feel anything.

"Pero babe, we can work this out!"

"Ayoko na. Nagsawa na ako. Sorry pero tapos na tayo. I love you.. But this is goodbye."

"Baaaaaaaaaabe!"

Bye.

Then I walked out of her life, one of the many girlfriends I never even tried to love.

Naririnig ko pa rin siyang umiiyak hanggang sa makapasok ako ng kotse ko, at nagdrive nang papalayo sa kanya. Tinignan ko siya sa salamin, nakaluhod pa rin siya at umiiyak. Well, who the hell cares? Nagsawa na ako eh. And wala na siyang kwenta para saken. In the first place, wala naman talaga siyang halaga eh. She was just a toy, an object, a trophy that I used and was glad to display to the guys.

Ang ganda kasi niya eh. Ala-model ang physique. She's tall and sexy, as in SEXY. Yung curves talaga ng katawan niya grabe. Mapapanganga ka na lang eh. Tapos matangkad din siya. 5"11' ako, at siya naman 5"8' ang height. Super puti niya pa. Tapos grabe, yung mukha niya? Nako. You're gonna be awestruck! Para bang Kathryn Bernardo na ganda. Grabe talaga mga pare!

Kaaasooo. Sa katulad ko siya napunta. HAHAHAHAHA. Kawawa nga naman talaga siya. Pero hindi naman totally. Kasi nagbenefit din naman siya at naging boyfriend niya ako. Ang kaso nga lang, napaasa siya sa wala. Napaniwala siya sa lahat ng kasinungalingan ko at nagawa kong mapamahal siya saken. Pero, sorry not sorry. Walang basagan ng trip. At mas lalo nang walang makakapigil sa akin sa gusto kong gawin sa lecheng buhay ko na to.

You hate me now don't you? Well, I couldn't blame you. I'm really a cold-hearted bastard. A freaking son of a-.. Yeah. You get the point. Call me whatever you want. Who the hell cares!

Pero, hindi naman ako ganito noon. I knew what loyalty and respect meant before. I knew those two words in my heart. But people change. Some for the better, and some, well, let's just say some don't know how to handle pain as much as others can.

Don't believe me? I dont care. Basta alam ko, hindi ako ganito dati. I wasn't a monster. It might be hard to imagine. Pero hindi ako manloloko noon. Wala sa vocabulary ko ang salitang yun.

I was even a good guy before. A guy who would cross mountains and swim oceans for a girl he loved. A guy who would do anything and everything he can just to see that smile of hers. A guy who would give up everything just to be with her. A guy who thought he could truly love and be loved. A guy who broke his heart because he once believed in love.

I'm Gregory Roque. Ang dakilang playboy na walang ginawa kundi manakit ng babae. Sorry sa mga nasaktan, sinasaktan, at masasaktan ko. Pero wala na atang makakapagturo sa akin na magmahal ulit ng totoo. Because once a playboy, always a playboy.