Wishes Of US ~Jinkook~

Protect You

It's been 2 weeks since I am working at a gas station near the apartment. The shift started at 7 am and ended at 9 pm made me tired but more than bored. And the pay is also low for me because I have to cover medical expenses and other things that need as essentials. I need a highly-paid job before hyung starts treatments in two weeks. While waiting for customers I sat down on a chair inside the little room and searched through the jobs that go with my qualifications. Maybe I'll be able to find a place to work as a boxing instructor. After a long search, I found a gym instructor position vacancy and I immediately put my CV into that. Payment is not bad, also it's quite near to the apartment so hyung won't be alone for too long until I come. I put my phone in charge and went to greet the customer just came.

"I made Kimchi fried rice." sweet aroma hit my nose when I entered the apartment. Hyung is standing near the stove with a spoon in his hand.
"Are you eating without me?"
"I just taste it." he pouted while dropping the spoon into the sink.
"With a big spoon?"
"It's not a big spoon."
"Then let me have a bit from it"
"Take a shower first. I'll make the table."
"Hyung I need one bite."
"Come here you little brat."
"I am not little"
"Who said? Open your mouth" he got a big spoonful of rice and fanned over it to make it cool before the drop into my mouth.
"You said," I said after eating the mouthful of rice and fled to the washroom before he hit me with the spoon.
"I'll take my revenge. You better get your ass here before foods get cold."
"Give me 5 minutes hyung. I'll come quickly." I screamed at the top of my lungs while closing the bathroom door.

After dinner, we cuddled on the couch and started to watch a film. That's when I opened my emails to find the reply email for the job applications I sent morning. They replied to come there for an interview. If this will succeed I can get hyungs treatments without worry. Hyung put his head on my lap and I started to caress his head. I can see his eyes getting closed with my touch. He has small red dots on his hands due to the sickness he is going through. I caress those with my thumb with a heavy heart. Once he had smooth and pale skin without a single mark but now it's getting these red dots. I wanted to cry hard while hugging him but I controlled myself by caressing them because I couldn't show my weak side to him. I have to be strong for him. After an hour is in deep sleep but he is having slight fever and small trembling going through his whole body. I gently took him into my arms and place him on the bed and covered him with his puffy sheet.

"Did you sleep well hyung?" I asked while giving him his morning coffee.
"Mmmm...." he smiled with a nod.
"Are you not going today?" he asked.
"No hyung. I took a leave. I have an interview for a new job."
"Congratulations... Where?"
"Gym instructor in QG."
"Oh... Great. Jungkookah... I am in 100% fine condition. Can I go to work? I can't let you work the whole day. Please." he watched with me pleading eyes. I am sure he is feeling guilty for letting me work alone for us. But we are not individuals after all. He is mine and I am his so what is the point of thinking separately?

"First get your treatments hyung. Then we will talk about this." I went to him and kissed his forehead.
"Okay..." he pouted with his plump lips and hugged my waist protectively.

I got a job as a gym instructor. Payment is fine more than I got in a gas station. Moreover, I can continue my practices here as well. While going home I brought fish cakes and dumplings for hyung. The hot broth of dumplings will bring warmth in cold January. I started turning on the apartment heater because hyung is trying to convince me he doesn't need a heater in the whole apartment and that having one is his bedside is enough. But I know he is trying to save bills by turning off those. How can I leave him to do whatever he wants? He frequently gets a fever than before. At night he is trembling in my embrace like a little kitten. My heart is broken into pieces looking at him. I know he is trying his best to show he is doing fine but tiredness and pain in his eyes tell everything he has been hiding from me. But all I can do is hug him and comfort him with my words. If I can get his pain I'll surely take all of them. If I can get his illness I'll do it. But life is unfair, god is unfair more than I thought. He is not willing to give me a chance to share his pain. All I can do is cry from inside and hugged him from outside to give him the warmth he needs. We started to go for a walk at midnight. I could cover him with a big jacket and cover his ears and make sure to wear his mask. Taehyung hyung told me I need to protect him from cold and dust because his immunity system is weak due to illness. After a short walk, we go to eat hot dumplings he likes and sometimes fish cakes. I wish every day will be like this. He is with me by my side everywhere, clutching my palm tightly while smiling at me with warm eyes. I wish I can turn back everything and keep him away from all harm. I wish I could steal him and keep him protected from the world. His soul has deserved everything. His soul is deserved every inch of the happiness in this world. He doesn't deserve anything he is going through right now.