Wishes Of US ~Jinkook~

His Ambition

After a week everything went back to normal specifically after the tantrum pulled by Hyung had for a whole week. He is surprisingly calm and it gives me chills sometimes. After yesterday's game when I got back home, he was waiting in the living room and silently checking my body with a concerned gaze. He brought the aid kit and quietly treat the little swellings on my ribs and arms. He didn't say anything, didn't try to pull tantrums, and oddly calmed while treating me. I am really glad that finally he accepted what I am trying to do for us.

His face is flushed into my chest with a little pout on his lips. He got skinnier than he used to be. His glowed black hair is not healthy as it used to be. It got thinner and lost its glow and volume. He used to have white skin with naturally blushed pink. Those turned pale and lost their color while leaving little red needle marks all along the skin. His breath is not a smooth one, looks like he is struggling even to breathe properly. I can't help but cry over him. He is suffering and I couldn't do anything to take away his pain from him. I caressed his black locks softly. I can see his body get tensed to my touch. That gives me a smile thinking if we hadn't gone through this what would we be doing right now? Probably I can hug him with all my strength without being cautious all the time. I can kiss him and make love to him all night long and morning too if he is healthier than he is right now. We can go for long rides, and long trips, and we can pass out while drinking nonstop while eating junk. Every innocent dream I had with me turned into a pain and I don't know what wrong we did in our past to go through this kind of situation. I loved him, he loved me and finally, we got one another without going through a lot of hardships, probably that's why we are suffering right now. Because in the end I am fated to bear pain more than I am enjoying my life with happiness.

"Are you up?" I pecked his head while caressing his back.
"Mmm..." he hummed against my chest.
"Sleep a little more hyung. I'll wake you up once breakfast is ready." I placed a peck on the forehead and place his head on the pillow which rest on my chest.
"Don't go... Stay with me a little bit." he softly mumbled while clutching my arm.
"You should eat before your medicines." I tried to get off from bed.
"A please little bit." his puppy eyes formed in front of me and I am out of words to refuse it.
"Come here." I hugged him to my body and softly hummed into his ear. His warmth gives me peace of mind. I can feel his little kisses on my neck and I tried my best not to react to his antics. But who can hold when he is doing this? I felt he is grabbing into my hair and marking my neck with his claim on me. When he got possessive towards me? I cracked a smile at his bold actions.

Again it was a beautiful morning I wish for every day. I left the apartment in the afternoon and went to work full of happiness. This feeling fills me up to the fullest and I can't help the smile automatically crept into my mouth. 

"Can you go tonight? Your phone is unreachable. I tried once or twice." when I got to the gym boss chirped with little concern on his face.
"Ah, I forgot to put it on charge." actually I forgot the device and I just put it into my pant pocket when I came out from home.
"Okay. I'll pick you up." he turned away and went inside without asking for my reply. I just nodded my head without uttering a word cause even though I mumbled my agreement to him he won't able to listen to it.

"Please can you take me somewhere?" I gritted my teeth while mumbling the words. Today I got the worst opponent and end up with a probably broken rib which might be the reason I can't breathe properly and it gives me intense pain.
"Where?" the boss asked while starting his Jeep.
"Friend's house. I might get medicines for this. Otherwise, I won't be able to play for at least two weeks. He just agreed with silence and followed the GPS I put on his phone. I feel bad to bother Taehyung Hyung this time but I don't have any other choices. I got off the Jeep and greet good night and went to Taehyung Hyung's apartment. More than medicines I wanted to get away from Hyung. He was very happy the morning I left him and I don't want to ruin his mood. I dragged my tired body towards his door and rang his bell. Even though I know his passcode I don't want to invade his privacy at the midnight. After ringing it more than 3 times I heard shuffling sounds from inside and the sound of unlocking.
"Jungkook...? Where were you? I tried to find you everywhere and your phone is out of service for the whole day." his voice is not sleepy at all. More like he is waiting for me.
"What's the problem hyung?" I passed him and went inside the apartment. I straightly went to the kitchen and grabbed a cool water bottle from the refrigerator and gulped it in one go. When I turned back to Taehyung Hyung I knew something is wrong. I placed the bottle on the kitchen counter and dragged my feet toward Hyung.
"what is it hyung? What happened?" I asked with a full nervous voice. This is not giving me a good vibe.
"Did Jin Hyung tell you something?"
"What kind of thing? He was in a good mood when I left to work today."
"Then why are you here? Without going to the apartment? Did you go there?"
"No, I just came here. I'll go tomorrow"
"Did you guys fight?"
"No hyung we didn't."
"Don't get panic Jungkookah. Jin Hyung went somewhere I think. Hoseok Hyung called me and told me Jin Hyung was not home when he got back to the apartment at the night."
"What?" I lost all the blood on my head. I feel like I am hearing things and that gives me dizziness to comprehend all the things I just heard.