Wishes Of US ~Jinkook~

I Wish For A Dream

I snuggled him on his bed craving for the warmth of his body. I showered him with little pecks and spooned him without too much force.
"What did Dad say to you?"
"Nothing hyung."
"Don't lie to me. Just tell me."
"Don't work with your smart brain. Just let it go."
"Why you can't accept Dad's help?"
"I can't hyung."
"Tell me then. There is anything you can't say to me?"
"No Huyng that's not what I mean. I met Dad when you went to Jeju. We had a little hot water then. So I can't accept his support hyung."
"But Jungkook... He is accepted us now. So what's the matter? I don't like to think about how you find money for me. It kills me more than anything Jungkook. Just this once please let go of your anger and get his help."
"I am not angry hyung. I just can't. We already got into agreement hyung. Let's follow it for now. Just get sleep now." I kissed his lips and tightly hold him in my embrace.

After a one and half months I was able to get collect money for medical treatments and at the same time, Taehyung Hyung found a suitable donor for Hyung. The operation was scheduled for the day after tomorrow and I stayed with Hyung every second. He is not in good shape and it gives me sudden goosebumps because at the moment I am scared so much. I think I am more sacred than Hyung right now.

I pushed his wheelchair and went to the balcony. It's December finally. Hope everything will be all right after this winter. I tucked the soft sheet around him tightly because it was getting cold because of the upcoming winter season.

"Hyung... I think we can celebrate Christmas at home. Then new year's Eve"
"We already made plans for new year's Eve." his eyes are smiling.  I am happy to see him like this.
"I'll book tickets then." I kissed his forehead.
"Jungkook... Promise me after this you will follow your dreams no matter what happens. Promise me you will stop wasting your life only for me. Promise me you grow to be a strong man with a strong mind."
"I'll hyung. I promise I do everything you told me. And I promise I am not going to leave you again. You too, can't leave me again okay?" he smiled at me.
"So what about the home we are building in Jeju?"
"I gotta have a job before doing it," Hyung replied with a small smile.
"You can get one hyung. I am not stopping you."
"I know that. Let's build a small house then. I like it to be white. Fully white. And I know you hate the morning sun when you sleep. So let's get black curtains to our room. For other places, we can put white or ash. And a small kitchen for us. Big bathroom. Little garage for mini cooper and bicycles. You can draw on the canvas and place it everywhere. It will be lovely more than buying those." he continued while smiling.
"You didn't forget that" I kissed him. My heart feels like it is holding tons of steel because it is so weight for me.
"I didn't. I won't."
"Thank you hyung. Thank you for not forgetting that. Thank you for fighting for that. Thank you for coming to me. Thank you for accepting me. Thank you for being with me. I love you. Love you more than anything in the world." I hold his hand and softly mumbled while looking at his eyes. I can see his eyes filling with tears. He is so precious to this world. I wish for him in my every life. I know this life is not enough to be with this wonderful person. I wanna cherish this love for an eternity. I wanna paint it purple and frame and protect it. So it won't be faded.
"Jungkook... When I first met you, I didn't know I'll come this far with you. You were a silent one, but you were strong back then too. Like now. When I came to the dorm every day, I wish to see you even though we didn't know each other. Then time went quickly your first kiss on me on the ground I didn't know what happened but I wished for more. Then we separated but still we had contact. When I decide to leave you back then, I thought not only my hyung operation, I thought I couldn't stop loving you and I was being a traditional man, I decided to leave you Jungkook. I still think I would have left you back then without coming this far. Then again I am regretted to think like that because the time we spent together was the best time of my life. Sorry for leaving you not once not twice more than that. But still, you found me without leaving me. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for not leaving me even though I did a lot of stubborn things. Thank you for staying strong. Thank you for saving me Jungkook.I love you. Love you more than anything in the world". Hyung cried so hard and hugged me tightly. I am too crying so hard at his words. He is suffered enough. I want him to be at peace with me from now on. Smiling widely.

I sat in front of the operating room. It's been a few hours I think I lost count because of my never-ending thoughts. I am happy same time I am nervous and scared. This is gonna be alright...

Teahyung Hyung came outside after a few more hours. I ran into him and stood there clutching his shoulder.
"We have to wait Jungkook. We can't say anything right now."
"Why hyung?" I felt my body getting cold again... Taehyung Hyung's face is not cheery as always.
"He is weak. We have to check him closer for a few days." I released my grip on his shoulder. I felt like the floor underneath me starting to vanish. I felt someone hold me tightly and I just sat there to gain my conscious mind.