Look at Me - H.S.

~ Chapter 11 ~

Ok, I need a minute. I can't...I don't even.

What. The. FUCK.

I'm staring. I know I am but I can't stop myself. He looks worried. Why does he look bloody worried. He lives here! Maybe it's me. Oh god, what is my face doing right now. I'm scaring him.

Say something Cassie, Jesus.

"Ok" - I take a deep breath and turn to look at Shaun who hasn't moved from the driver's seat and then turn back again to look at Harry.

"I really need to do something right now and I need you both to promise that we'll never speak of it again. Also, don't judge me, ok?" I ask, trying my very best to remain calm despite the fuckery that's swimming around inside my head right now. "Ok?" I ask again, this time I'm a little sterner, holding up a finger to each of them while looking dead ahead, I can't watch their faces while I do this.

"Ok"
"Yep"

They both answer at the same time, I can see in my peripheral that they're both nodding. I think they're concerned. They should be.

I take a deep breath and hold it. I bend forward and put my face in my hands, now doubled over so that the backs of my hands are touching the tops of my knees. And. I. Scream.

"OH MY FUCKING GOOOOOODDDDD!!!!"

And breathe...

I sit up slowly, neither of them have moved, no one is saying anything. I turn to look at Shaun first, the corners of his mouth are slightly turned up and his eyes are scanning my entire face as I look at him. Then I turn to Harry, his mouth is slightly open, his eyes wide and eyebrows raised. I'm pretty sure he's taken a step back too.

Harry breaks the silence first.

"Did you just...are you...was that?" He's stuttering, pointing his finger at me.

"Yep! Yeah, I did...I am...it most definitely was." I nod frantically giving them the confirmation they probably don't even need. I'm fan girling right now.

He's trying to keep it in but it's not happening, the laughter is literally sputtering through Shaun's lips little by little until he unleashes it and this time, it is a belly laugh. I swear there's tears in his eyes. Harry follows shortly after and I just can't wipe this smile off my face. My cheeks hurt, it's definitely a real one.

"Christ, Cassie!" Harry breathes out, one hand on his hip and the other on the top of the car while he bends over slightly, trying to catch his breath "I was fucking terrified for a minute there"

"I'm sorry" I laugh, covering my face again with my hands. "I'm so sorry. It was bound to happen at some point though, right? I mean, I've done pretty fucking well so far, I think. I'm not gonna lie and tell you it won't happen again, well maybe not to that degree but, c'mon, this is a lot." I turn to look back at Shaun "Shaun, help me out here. This is a lot, right?" I gesture one hand towards Harry and one between him, the car and the house.

"I'm with her on this one, H. You practically had me kidnap her, let the woman have her moment" he shrugs. I can sense the slight sarcasm to his tone but choose to ignore it and make the most of him sticking up for me. Beaming, I turn back to Harry, push him back slightly to give myself room to jump out of the car and grab his hand.

"See, perfectly valid response" I give him a sarcastic smile and start walking towards the house, still holding his hand. "Now, you gonna show me around your beautiful mansion, or what?" This time when I turn back to look at him my genuine smile is back, he chuckles under his breath and hangs his head slightly while he shakes it, running his free hand though his hair. "Go ahead and wait for me in the kitchen, just through that door there" he nods and points "I'll be in in a sec"