pov- imagines

HOPELESS- B. BARNES

pairings: bucky barnes x reader, natasha romanoff, steve rogers, tony stark. Oc
warnings: kidnap, torture, reader is threatened, rejection, ANGST
about: request! "where bucky nd reader have a big argument nd then she storms out in the middle of the night leading to her beiing kidnapped. Then the whole time she thinks bucky isn't coming for her due to the fight"
a/n: phew this took a hot minute. my longest fic. do not like the ending, but i hope you enjoy!!

bucky's smile is wide as he observes you flit about your room, a silly twinkle in his eyes while they observe your exaggerated thinking gesture, obviously dramatic in your search for his next book to read. he leans against your wall, amused by your pulled features as they contemplate two different books: one red and well-loved and one blue and weathered.

"hmm, do you want something sad and romantic that has lines that make me doubt that i'll ever find love," you begin, raising the blue book higher. "or something classic and sweet and scary?" you continue, shaking the red one.

"how could you doubt you'll find love?" bucky wonders aloud then, and you turn to your bookshelf again just to get away from the intensity of his gaze.

you shrug, unsure of how to respond, busying yourself with putting one of the books away.

"it's you," bucky continues, stressing the pronoun as if its implication is obvious. "you'll get the best love. the pure and mushy type."

the lazy shapes your fingers are rubbing into the spine of your book slow as you soak in the implications that bucky's words carry with them. when you force yourself to meet his eyes, you're unsurprised to find them on you already, but it's startling to meet their depth, the way they were willing you to turn around without your knowledge. you begin to walk toward him, feigning your purpose as handing him the blue book.

"yeah?" you find yourself replying as you step forward slowly, searching for something deeper in bucky's face as it breaks out in a smile.

"yeah," bucky agrees with dead-set certainty. "the universe would be insane for giving you anything less."

you smother the bashful smile that fights to make only its whisper appear on your face, holding back the urge to look at the ground in overwhelming emotions due to the entirety of the situation—the implications that you'd thought ridiculous of you to even consider seeming more concrete with the honesty of the words that bucky promises to you, making his eyes gleam just a little bit brighter with an unbridled determination that you'd never seen before.

"anything less than what?" you ask, testing the waters simply for reassurance that might push you over an edge you aren't sure you want to cross.

"anything less than what you deserve," bucky clarifies. "the sweet, sappy love with the notes and pictures and gifts and safety and never letting you forget how loved you are. the basics."

you cock your head at him, trying not to drown in the wishes you had listed long ago that tumble from bucky's mouth.

"oh," you whisper, eyes flickering to the polaroids you have around your room, adorned with small, smudged words written messily in pen by bucky when he'd given them to you. there are post-its scrawled with his handwriting taped to your walls and hidden in a box underneath your bed. you can't help but see the parallels between his explanation of the love you "deserve" and the love he constantly rains over you.

the attraction you'd begun to harbor for him yearns more at the possibility of it being returned—because here he is, laying it out for you with his reflection displayed on the plans.

"the universe would be insane to not give you that," bucky goes on, the absolute resolve that you can make out in his words staggering. "anyone overall would be insane not to love you."