When the Past Returns

Carnival of Sins

On December 25, 2004 at 3:54 AM, mine and Nikki's second daughter, Teagon Lee was born. Nikki was in the delivery room like he said he'd be and the guys stayed in the waiting room with our kids for the four hours I was in labor. Donna moved out for a bit then came back, moved back out, came back. It was annoying. She found out that Juniper, Ashtyn, and Teagon are Nikki's. She did the math and figured out Ashtyn and Teagon were created while they were together. This caused a HUGE fight between Nikki, her, and I. I bought a small house to get away from it. The kids moved into the house with me and Nikki and Nikki kicked Donna out of his house. They filed a divorce and Nikki's selling the house they lived in. They share custody of Frankie-Jean. But, Frankie has never stopped calling me mom.

But before this, I went on tour with Nikki for the Carnival of Sins tour. The reunion tour. It was so much fun. I was one of the dancers. Then, me and Nikki drove back home, had some car sex on the way, and was greeted with some welcome home cards from our children. "Mom, when do we get our vacation?" June asks, cutting up the strawberries for Teagon. "As soon as school ends. Just a few more weeks, right?" I say, taking a handful of them. "Yeah, but where? Where are we going to go? I'm thinking the Bahamas." June says, spacing out. "Hey, June. You're not going anywhere. We're staying here unless mom and dad take us. They're probably tired. They just got off tour. Jesus christ, June. Think about them for once." Gunner says, sitting next to me. "Shut up, Gun. I do think about other people. But I'm so tired!!" June whines, leaning on the counter. Yes, all of Nikki's kids have started calling me their mother. I absolutely love it. "Dad! Ash isn't sharing is food!" Storm yells from the living room. "What are doing eating in the living room, Storm, Ash? You know better than to eat in here. All food is eaten in the kitchen or dining room." Nikki says. "Anyways, mom, we need to go on a vacation. Sarah McMullen is going to the Florida Keys and Lucy Franks is going to France. What about is, mom? I'm going to be the only one not going on vacation!" June argues. "Juniper, listen to what you're saying. You want to go on vacation because these rich and snobby kids are, too. How do their lives relate to yours? Tell me that. Please explain it to me." I say, getting myself a cup of orange juice.

"They're the most popular girls in school. Everyone wants to either be them or be with them. We're rich, aren't we? Can't we just take a first class plane ride to France and Spain?" She says. "Do you know how hard your father works for what you have? Look at what you're living under right now. Look at what you're eating. Look around you, Juniper. There are people who work so hard for what they have and it isn't enough. They don't have enough for their car payments or house payments. They don't have enough to feed their families so they're left to be hungry. You don't get it, do you? Look, we aren't going on an expensive trip unless you work for it. You can't have your brothers and sisters help you because you're the one who wants the trip so badly, you're the one who wants to be the "popular" kid. You're 16, nearly an adult. You can handle these things yourself, right?" I say, my anger building up. I've raised my kids better. When I wasn't in the best situations, my money was running low, I'd still help the lady in front of me in the grocery store pay for her kid's toy that he wanted so badly. I wouldn't eat that night, but my kids would. When I'd have a bit of extra money, I'd help pay for the man's extra stuff. I've taught my kids these things and this is how they've turned out. That's a bit upsetting.

I get up and leave the room. "Abby?" Nikki asks, standing up from his chair beside Teagon. "Nikki, not right now. I'm so pissed off." I say, going to the room Nikki and I sleep in.

I wake up, Nikki and Teagon beside me, watching tv. "Mama, are you feeling any better?" Teagon asks, climbing over her daddy and laying in between us. "I'm fine, sweetie. I'm better now. I just needed to sleep." I say, placing a kiss on her head. "Okay. Good. Daddy helped me made make you something. Come look!!!" She shouts, nearly falling off the bed. "Be careful." Nikki says, catching her with his leg. "But I'm so excited!" She shouts again. I laugh, shake my head, and follow her to the small kitchen. Nikki and I haven't looked at any new houses yet so we're in this small house with 7 kids. We needed to search for the new house but doesn't need be a mansion like his ex-wives wanted. It can be a house with enough rooms for every single one of the kids. "Here, mama. Daddy helped me!" Tea says, holding the cupcake pan to me. "Tiggy, isn't that hot?" I ask, taking the tray from her.

I take one and begin to eat it. "You made this?" I ask, my mouth full of cupcake. She nods while Nikki holds her. "It's so good, Tiggy." I say, kissing her cheek with my green frosted covered lips. "No, mommy!" Tiggy whines, giggling. We laugh with her when the rest of the kids come in. I kiss Gunner's cheek, Ashtyn's, and Frankie's, the only people I can get. "Hey, baby, come here. You're next." I say, running my fingers through Nikki's hair. Nikki, now empty handed, wraps one arm around my waist and puts his other hand on my cheek, bringing me closer to him. "You're so beautiful. I'm so lucky. I have the best kids with you and I get to come home everyday and see this wonderful women that loves me unconditionally." He says, his green eyes examining my face. "You have the most prettiest brown eyes and the most perfect nose. Those beautiful, full lips that I love kissing. You have the most beautiful black hair and even when you dye it, it still looks beautiful. How did I get so lucky?" He says, then kisses me so gently. "I love you so much, Nikki. You will never fully know how much I do." I say.