LOVE ME PLEASE

IT'S ALWAYS THE BLOODY PAST

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Hello lovely readers :)

Shame on me for taking an eternity just to deliver one chapter but I'm sorry, the ending is always confusing and tough part to write so I had to take enough space and time.

Also, I had my exams and now it's finally over so here I am. 

I bring you a brand new chapter that you guys are waiting for. 

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THEA'S POV:

Life does not give everyone a second chance to live it to the fullest, and I was grateful that I did, though it took me a long to realize it.

"Be ready, she'll be in here any minute now," Luke warned, checking his phone at the same time.

"Okay!" I straightened my pants and ran my fingers through the strands. "I'm nervous" I muttered under my breath before sipping coffee.

"Be yourself and let go of all your tension. She is a lovely lady." Luke made an effort to cheer me up, but he was unaware that I had lost my happiness fourteen days ago and that it was impossible for me to find it.

"I'm trying," I said, gripping my knees to stop my legs from shaking. Bloody Anxiety!

It had been the longest fourteen days since I broke Emric's heart as I pushed him out of my life and promised to never bother him. Every minute I was regretting my decision but also felt glad to free him from my responsibility. It was a mixed feeling. I felt conflicted and honestly, it was too suffocating to think of my life without him.

My heart was wailing in agony and my mind is in a gloomy place where not one tiny ray of light can enter.

I love him so much!

Emric hadn't shown up since that morning in the hospital. He didn't even bother to come and get his stuff.

I still haven't gotten past the image of his teary eyes as he walked out of the hospital room without any further argument. I don't have any business being cruel to my sweet Emric who got nothing but a betrayal from me, yet I did, and I'll be punished for breaking the purest heart in this world.

I can never understand how he chose me over everyone in his life. He chose me over his life. Who does that? Emric does it, you fool, my angel said.

I had heard of heroes that promised their love of life that they'd sacrifice the entire world just for them. That they'd destroy themselves just to protect their love and it actually sounded so fucking romantic. However, I never thought God ever made anyone this selfless and heroic, but then Emric came into life and now I believe that heroes exist. People like Emric love unconditionally and live selflessly.

Where are you, Emric? I hope you're okay. I prayed in my heart.

I had no idea where exactly he was. Maybe he was in DC with Asher or maybe he went somewhere where no one could find him. If it was the second scenario was true, I might stop breathing. Oh! Weren't you the one who said that Emric should be out of your life? my angel taunted.

Yes! Fuck yes, it was me. I regret it!

"Why didn't Carol join you? I thought she was your bodyguard" Luke chortled as he adjusted in his seat.

"She is busy with the store" I lied and shrugged with a fake smile. Carol wasn't busy but she wouldn't talk to me at all. After she found out about my decision, we had a really bad fight. She said so much she didn't even mean to say but I get it. Anger is an emotion that brings out the worst in everyone.