I Will Always Love You

Chapter 17 - funeral

27th Feb

Rosetta's POV:

I don't know how I'm going to get through today, I have to be the sort of host and I'm dreading it, I'm just going to be a blubbering mess.

I can't believe Lily's funeral is here already. And since no one has 'found' Harry it was said that this should be a joint funeral. I am a terrible liar. How is this going to go?

I try blinking away the tears that are already building up as I brush my hair looking at my reflection. I'm wearing a short black dress with a black shawl.

"We need to go in ten minutes" James says from the door to the bathroom "Rose you don't need to be strong today" he approaches me going to stand behind me resting his head on top of mine.
"I feel like I need to" he kisses my cheek
"I know you do, but you don't"

"Do you think Harry will be fine with Hally? Maybe I should stay here" James shakes his head
"Harry will be fine and Hally said she'd be fine, shes great with him"
"But shes a houself she can't send me a patronus if she needs help" i rush out
"Breathe love, it'll be fine just focus on the funeral, Harry will be fine"

Timeskip

"Now Rosetta Evans wanted to say a few words" I try to calm my breathing but I can't as I start to hyperventilate
"Rose it's okay you don't have to" James rubs my back before getting up, I grab his hand my watery eyes questioning his actions but he just rubs the back of my hand affectionately before letting go and heading to the front. I duck my head down looking at my shoes.

"Hi, I know my wife was going to say a few words but as I'm sure your all aware this is incredibly hard for her. Lily wasn't just her sister but her friend; they were always so close. Me and Lily didn't have the best past, to be perfectly honest she found me annoying." James laughs lightly "that could have been because I kept trying to date her sister." People start laughing "regardless, I always respected her, admired her, I'm kind of ashamed I never actually told her that, she was so intelligent it's ridiculous and she was kind and protective of the people she cared about and people she didn't even know." He pauses "we'll all miss her kindness and of course her little boy, Harry who was to young, way to young. But they will both be remembered by us all now and forever" I smile softly through my tears as he rejoins me. I huddle into his side as I quietly sob before we stand to sing.

Timeskip

We leave the building and I hug all my friends and many others come over offering there sympathies, how I wish I could have avoided all that, just resulted in more tears.

"Hey" James wraps his arms around my shoulders
"Hi" I reply softly
"How are you holding up?" He questions
"Not great" I turn around in his arms "I feel guilty for not saying anything" tears build up for what feels like the hundredth time today
"Rose, there is no reason to feel guilty about that, no one will hold anything against you, and you know Lily wouldn't blame you."
"I know" I wipe away a tear "doesn't stop the guilty, sick feeling I have in my stomach"
"I know it doesn't" he places his hands on either side of my face and kisses my head.

"Hey pretty girl" I roll my eyes and turn around to see Reg walking over with Kayla close behind
"He doesn't do well with funerals, makes him uncomfortable" Kayla states as she stands by James
"Clearly" James gestures to Reg's fidgety hands
"I'm not uncomfortable" But James simply looks at Reg's fidgety hands again resulting in Reg hiding them behind his back
"Okay I don't do well with serious occasions alright" he rolls his eyes

Timeskip

By the time we get home my eyes are burning from the amount of tears that had fallen from them.

So instead of fighting my husband I let him check on Harry as I go straight up to bed and I fall asleep almost immediately.