Ryan Rose 'Spirit' Sola

Chapter 15

A/N: Hey everyone here is a new chapter. I don't know if anyone is reading this or not. IF you are, thank you so much. I'm almost caught up with where I have already prewritten. I'm trying to write more chapters and I'm hoping to end this one soon. But then again life happens. Thank you again for reading this story. 

Last time:

"Ryan are you sure you're okay sis?" Asked Ghost.

I glared at him and said, "I'm going to bed."

I walked back to my room and closed the door and slid down it. I picked up my phone and called Blaze again. Yet again their was nothing. I sighed and said, "I'm sorry Blaze. I'm too weak to handle everything. I'm slipping again. I'm sorry. Please for give me. Blaze I don't know what happens next. And I really don't care. I forgave you long ago. I just wish I knew you were okay. I need my best friend back, the one who knows how to kick my ass. The one who saved me more than once. The one I have always counted on. I'm sorry for being too young for you. I feel like I'm starting to like someone else. But I don't want to lose you. I need you still. Please don't be dead."

I hung up and Spirit came over to me and licked my face. I sighed and said, "What will tomorrow bring? I wonder how much long I have to wait before he has me next. He already has Angel. I lost my child because of what I did and what he did to me. Spirit do me a favor, I know you understand me, but when the time is right mommy is going away for a while. Can you stay close to Emily. She'll be broken if something has happen to her brother and then with me being gone. Watch her like you do me okay. So go sleep with her."

I kissed him one last time and opened the door. I sat down and waited for everyone to be asleep. I got up and pulled out my back pack and packed it with what I would need. I made a hidden pocket and placed a phone in their with Lacy's cousin's number on it, that only her cousin can trace.

When I was done I sat down at the window bench and just watch as the night slowly faded away and it became day. I glanced at my phone and noticed that it was 3am. I sighed and just looked up at the sky.

"Rye Why are you still up?" Called a rough sleepy voice.

"I couldn't sleep is all," I replied.

I heard movement and the next thing I knew I was being picked up and place in bed on the side that he was in. I relaxed and watched as he covered me up and walked over to the side that I always sleep in. He climbed into bed and pulled me close to him for some warmth and I flinched when he touched a little above my wrist. Thank goodness that it was dark in my room otherwise he might have noticed.

I turned on my side and faced the wall and Chris had his arms around me and he said, "Are you all right? I know you're worried about Blaze and I'm sorry if I sound a little jealous right now, but I'm starting to like you more than I should. I know that your not 21 yet and I know your history but I was wondering why it seems like you are pushing me away after telling me everything that happened."

I turned around to face him and said, "I don't want to. But its all I know how to. I'm messed up Chris. I'm not someone that you would want to be with. Just let me go."

Then he did something that shocked me again and kissed me. This time I kissed back. I wasn't thinking straight, I was too tired to fight with myself. I left my body take control. I kissed his back. The kiss was never ending. All too soon I was on my back with my sweatshirt being half unzipped.