Ryan Rose 'Spirit' Sola

Chapter 40

A/N: Hello everyone, how is everyone doing? I'm working hard on writing this and a few other stories and updating as much as possible because right now I'm getting my computer screen fixed and I'm hoping it's only my screen on my computer. Anyways thank you all for reading and now on with the story.

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Chapter 40

Ryan's  POV

I was still sitting down on the swing for a few more minutes until my mother called my name. I got up and walked into the kitchen. I could smell the bbq sauce from the crockpot. Mhmm I knew what she was making. My mom was making some pulled pork and sweet potatoes and coleslaw.

"Ryan I want to know how you really feel about Chris? Don't worry your dad won't kill him or anything. Just tell me honestly how you feel about him?" My mother asked me while mixing the coleslaw.

I sighed and hopped onto the island in the kitchen and looked at her and said, " I think I might be in love with him mom. When I first met him I didn't want nothing to do with my brother or his band. Then every wall I put up he was able to break them all down. I'm not sure how he feels about me at times because I feel like he loves someone else and not me. Or it's just me being scared of what might happen between the two of us."

My mother looked at me and said, "Ryan you know yourself more than you think you do. I know for a fact that you love him. If you didn't you wouldn't be so hurt when you came home from tour. I love you my sweet girl but I know that you love him. Just trust yourself and don't worry what the future may bring. I trust you and what you decide. How does Blaze fall into this whole mess?"

She had to ask me that question. The one that me Blaze worked out and that Chris is really jealous of him for no reason. I sighed and looked at my mother and said, "Blaze is a really good friend. He gets me and understands where I'm coming from. We're still friends but we promised that if or when we are both not dating we'll give each other a chance. Chris is really jealous of Blaze but he has nothing to worry about."

I knew what I had said was true. Blaze and I still kept the pack and we will be seeing other people and if we both break up with who we are with we'll try with each other. I know that this is for the best. Me being with Chris is all that I need besides the band of corse.

"I'm happy that you found someone to love and that you have opened yourself up to someone new and you are able to find love. That's all I want for my children is to find love and be happy." Said my mother.

I felt a tear fall and I wiped it away before she could see it. I knew that is all that she wanted for us is to find love and be happy. I'm happy with Chris and with the band. I knew if I were to fall that Chris and Blaze would both be there.

An hour passed and dinner was finally done. I was sitting at the table and waited for my father, brother, Blaze and Chris to come and join us. I was a little nervous and my mother knew it because she just smiled at me.

A few minutes later they finally came out. Blaze sat next to my right and Chris to my left. My brother sat next to Chris and my father sat next to my mother. I knew this was going to be one awkward dinner.

"Ryan, Blaze told me something's and I agree with what you did and how you hid things from us and now no more secrets. I don't want any more secrets from any of my kids." My father said to us.

Devin (A.K.A Ghost) looked at me and at Chris and looked at our father and said, "No more secrets dad. We both agreed."

I nodded my head when my father looked at me said, "Ryan I want you to be honest with me and tell me the truth about you and Chris? I know it's none of my business what goes on between the two of you, but Ryan are you staying safe when you two are lone with one another?"

I froze and glanced at Chris and looked away. Were we playing safe? I knew we haven't slept with one another, we've come close but never been that far. I looked up at my father and said, "Don't worry Dad, we're staying safe if that eases your mind."

"Good, I just wanted to make sure that you're not being pressured into anything." Said my dad.

I saw Chris smile and he said, "Don't worry Sir, no one is pressuring her into anything. We're taking it slow and at her own pace."

"He's telling the truth dad. We're taking it slow so please don't worry too much," I told my father.

My father nodded his head and I knew right then and there that he believes us. My mother smiled because she knew the truth. Devin smiled and he said, "Dad out of everyone from my band I trust Chris the most."

Blaze then spoke up and said, "You guys have nothing to worry about. I get that Chris may be jealous of me at times but he and you guys have nothing to worry about. Red knows enough to come and talk with me over anyone else at this table."

I saw Chris glare at him and I shook my head and knew that it would be a while before these two become friends or even friendly with one another. I knew that something had to be done but I wasn't sure what that would be. Devin smiled and said, "You could lock those two up in a room together and have them hash it out with one another."

I laughed at that and mom looked up and said, "What are you two talking about?"

Devin and I looked at mom and said, "Nothing."

After dinner mom and dad started the dishes and Blaze left and Devin left as well. I walked into my room and Chris walked in after I was laying down on t he bed. He sat next to me and said, "So are you truly saying I have nothing to worry about between you and Blaze now?"

"Jealous doesn't suit you at all. I love you Chris and you truly have nothing to worry about." I told him honestly. I knew he needed to hear those words more. I sighed as he laid down next to me, I looked at him and said, "I love you Chris and no one else. I know you might not believe me but I do love you. I'm not so sure if you-"

He cut me off and pulled me on top of him and he kissed me and he said, "I love you and I'll always love you Ryan. Yes I am Jealous of Blaze but that is something between him and me. You don't need to worry about me not loving you Ryan."

I smiled and kissed him again. I love the feeling of him kissing me. I wanted to continue but I knew we wouldn't be able to because of being in my home with my parents in the house. I sighed and pulled away from the kiss and said, "We can't here."

"I know. Why don't you come and visit us? Me and your brother in a few weeks. You can stay with him or with me." Chris said to me.

"I love the sound of that idea," I told him.

That night Chris didn't leave my room as we both fell asleep next to one another. I felt comfortable and safe in his arms.