Ryan Rose 'Spirit' Sola

Chapter 24

A/N: Hey everyone how is it going? Anyways I'm off from work today and I get to try and update a few stories before I have to get ready for a 3-hour drive to my cousin's house and another 1 drive to my other cousin's house for dinner. Anyways thank you for those of you who are reading and voting for this story it really means a lot to me, yes, I know I always say that, but it really does, and it brightens up my day a lot. Any who on with the chapter. Trigger warning for self-harm coming up.

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Chapter 24

Ry's POV

An hour later I was getting off stage and walking around trying to find my brother when I saw Ashley talking with Chris. What I saw next killed me inside. They kissed. He pushed her away and when he saw me, I ran away from him. I ran till I got onto my bus. Blaze saw me and he asked me what happened, and I told him what I saw, and he held me. I pushed him away and went to the back room on the bus and locked the door. I opened up my notebook and picked up my blade and cut, while cutting I wrote, murder, whore, liar, cheater, slut, into my arms and darkness consumed me.

I woke to sometime later to voices outside my door. I didn't want to deal with anyone right now. I sat up and looked at my arm and saw that the blood has stopped bleeding. I picked up and old washcloth and started to clean what I could. The cut was still there but the words were barely visible.

I grabbed one of my long-sleeved and my sweatpants. I unlocked my door and walked out of my room and into the shower. Everyone was talking. Once I was clean and the rest of the blood stains were died up, I got dress and walked out to where everyone was at. I froze when I was Devin and Chris on the bus.

"What are they doing on this bus?" I asked no one in particular.

"Red they need to talk with you. Listen to them please," said Blaze.

I glared at him and said, "Why should I? I'll listen to Devin but Chris, no."

I started to walk back to my room when I felt someone follow me. I thought it was Ghost, so I didn't bother to look. I laid down on my bed and I heard the door close and lock. I sighed and said, "What do you want to talk about Devin."

"I'm not Devin." Said Chris.

I sighed and rolled away from him and said, "What do you want Chris? I've seen what happened. I saw it, Chris. I'm-"

I felt the bed dip and his arms came around me and said, "Ry I want you and only you. I've done everything you asked me so far. I saw you looking at us when she kissed me. I pushed her away. I told her I'm with someone else. She said that she knew that I was in love with Ghost's sister. Ashley said it was a goodbye kiss. I think she has something going on with Nikki anyways."

I still didn't move. He pulled me too him and said, "Ry please."

I sighed and said, "What do you want me to say. That my brain saw one thing and my heart another. I'm trying Chris. I really am. I'm glad that you are giving me a chance here. But answer me this one question are you two still going to sing together?"

He didn't answer. I knew what that meant. They would be singing songs together. I held back the tears and said, "I want to explore what we have but no more kissing and no more inappropriate touches of another girl."

He didn't say anything for the longest time. I sighed and I felt him lean closer to me and move my hair to the side and kissed the back of my neck. I held my breath because that was one of my week spots and the only one who knew that was Blaze. I knew Blaze wouldn't have told anyone about that.

Chris hands moved down to my hips and his mouth was next to my ear and said, "I won't. I promise."

I smiled, but Chris was kissed the back of my neck and he said, "Is someone getting turned on?"

I rolled over being careful of my arm and said, "No."

Chris kissed me and said, "Why do we always do this?"

"Wish I knew." I spoke.

He kissed me and my back hit the bed and Chris was on top of me and kiss my neck and his hands were under my shirt. My legs were wrapped around his waist. I sighed into his kiss and said, "We're not have sex on the bus and I'm not taking my clothes off buddy."

He pouted and said, "why not?"

"Because that's the rule of the bus. Also, I still need to talk to Devin about us." I told him.

Chris rolled off from me and I got up to walk to the front of the bus and noticed that it was dark. No one was there and the bus was moving. I slowly walked back to the bunk are and checked each bunk and everyone was asleep. Devin was asleep in the spare bunk.

I walked back into the back room and closed the door. Chris was on his phone when I got back into bed. I rolled away from him and picked up my Itachi blanket and covered myself up. I felt Chris curl next to me and said, "Did you find your brother?"

"Yeah, he was asleep." I spoke.

Chris pulled me to his and kissed my neck, I felt my breathing pick up a little bit. Chri's hands was moving down my covered body trying to find the end of the blanket. All to soon Chris's hand was under the blanket and under my shirt. His arms rested against my stomach. I was pulled even closer to Chris to the point I felt his front against my back.

"Chris." I started to say.

He turned me so that I was facing him, and he kissed me. I kissed back. I threw my blanket over the both of us and kissed him. I pulled him closer and said, "We're-"

"I know. But I need to feel you because I have a feeling that you'll disappear from me. We won't have sex. I just want to reassure myself that I'm not dreaming okay." He spoke.

He pulled me on top of him and I kissed him deep and hard. I felt his hands enter my pants and soon they were on my thigh. I smiled and said, "Better Chris. Now we go to sleep and that means hands to yourself."