Ryan Rose 'Spirit' Sola

Chapter 36

A/N: Well, here is another chapter. Sorry I didn't update this weekend for it was my birthday over the weekend and I had a lot of things to do. One of those things was work. :( But at least I got a few chapters done for some of my stories and one chapter done for this story I believe. Anyways I hope you all enjoy this little chapter and thank you all for reading. I'll update as soon as I can. Now on with the story.

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Chapter 36

Ry's POV

I woke sometime later to my brother knocking on my door. I sighed and glanced at the clock and saw it was only 3 in the afternoon. I got up and opened the door and let my brother in. I sat on my bed and wait for him to say something to say anything. Anything at all.

"Ry I'm sorry. I didn't know that they died. I'm so sorry. I can't believe I ignored your calls because I needed to make sure I knew the songs. That I had to prove that I was a good bass player to the guys and the fans." Ghost said.

I sighed and said, "You should have called me back when you had time. Mom and dad tried calling you. What would have happened if they called and told you that I was dead. What would you have done. Ignore mom and dad's calls like you did mine."

I knew he would get mad. We were almost yelling at each other when Spirit walked into my room. I sighed and looked away from him and said, "You wonder why I never told you about them or my ex. I love you, Ghost. But I don't know how much more I can take before I end up leaving for good."

He looked sad and he said, "Give me a chance. I promise that we can work through this. I trust you and I trust who you chose to love. I love the fact that you chose Chris over anyone else within the band to fall for."

I laughed and said, "I'm glad my heart decided for me. I do love him, but Ghost I'm scared because he would be my first, I've never had a choice with my ex. This time it would be choice to you know."

Ghost sighed and said, "I don't know what to tell you. I know you didn't have a choice with your ex, but you will with Chris. Listen I know you two would probably have done it already if it weren't for Blaze and the arguments and whatever else was going on."

I laughed because it was true. I sighed and said, "So where is Chris now?"

"He's in the room next to you. I think you two should talk. I don't want to leave the house, but I'll be back, I need to go and see someone okay." Ghost said to me.

I sighed and nodded my head. I knew who he was going to see and that was Blaze. They have been talking a lot lately and Blaze was feeling something for Rylie, I could see it on his face when he met her. I hope they do get together.

I hugged my brother, and he walked out of my room. I got up and walked to the room next to mine and slowly opened the door. I watched as he was asleep. He must have fallen back to sleep after Ghost, and I stopped yelling at each other. Slowly walking over to him I placed a kiss on his forehead and walked out of the room and decided to take a show.

Once I was out of my shower, I looked at myself. My long black hair was fading back to blonde. The colors wore out long ago. I looked down my body and thought about why anyone would want something that was damaged as me.

I covered myself when I heard the bathroom door opened. When I looked up, I saw that it was Chris. I sighed and he just staired at me. He shut the door and walked over to me and kissed me. I kissed him back. It felt good kissing him again. He bit my lip and I gasp, and his tongue entered my mouth and I moaned at the feel of him. I jumped into his arms and my legs wrapped around him. I felt him start to harden with my naked body was wrapped around him. He kissed down my neck and slowly sucked on my skin and I moaned again.

"Ry we need to stop or-" Chris tried to say.

"Why do we need to stop?" I asked him out of breath.

"We need to talk, and you still need to talk with Ghost," he said.

I kissed him again and said, "I already talked with him. I missed you and I know I fucked up by leaving. I can understand if you don't want me."

I jumped down from him and turned away from him, so he didn't have to see my face. I felt his arms wrap around me and pulled my body close to his and he said, "Don't ever think that I don't want you, Ryan. I love you and I would have loved taking you right here and now, but we need to talk about how you just left me in the middle of tour."

I smiled and said, "wait for me in my room. I'll tell you when I get back."

I felt him bend down and kiss me. I moaned as his hand touched my thigh. I knew he heard me because he pressed his hand against harder and moved it up my thigh. I moaned at the feel of his hand moving. I turned around and said, "If you don't stop that we won't be able to talk."

He laughed and said, "I love how my hand pressed on your thigh makes you moan,"

I glared at him as he left. I changed into my long tee-shirt that I stole from Blaze years ago. I didn't bother putting on shorts since it was the two of us in the house. I brushed my hair and decided to go into my room and see what Chris wanted to talk to me about.

When I opened the door to my room Chris was laying down on my bed. He looked up at me and said, "So do you want to tell me why you didn't talk to me before up and leaving me and your band?"

I closed and locked my door and sat down next to him and said, "It's because I told Ghost that I would leave. Yet he knew I wouldn't compete leave my family. He knew I was lying to him. Chris, I didn't tell you because I'm in love with you and I couldn't break my heart even more."

He looked at me and said, "I love you to. But I love Yous are not going to help us go forward. So next time you feel like running away or need to tell you come to me. Talk to me."

I knew he was right. I was acting like a child.