Ryan Rose 'Spirit' Sola

Chapter 38

A/N: Hello everyone and welcome to the new year and a new chapter of Ryan Rose Spirit Sola. I hope everyone has enjoyed the holidays and the New Year's so far. As always thank you for reading and adding this story to your reading list it means a lot. Anyways on with this story.

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Chapter 38

Ry's POV

I woke the next morning and felt someone next to me. Someone was holding me. When I opened my eyes, I realized that Chris was holding me in his arms. He was sound asleep holding me. I smiled because it felt nice being held. I was enjoying myself by watching him sleep even though that sounded like I was a creep. But he looks so peaceful as if he has nothing in the world to be worried about. Sighing I knew that this wouldn't last much longer because we both needed to be awake because my parents would be home, and I don't think my father would like the idea of us being alone in my room.

As quietly as I could I got up and walked to the bathroom. I turned on the water to take a bath and to prepare myself for a long talk with my brother. I sighed as the hot water hit my body as I was slowly sinking into the bath. I closed my eyes when I heard movement in the hallway.

"Chris, look I'm sorry about last night and also let me finish talking to her okay." Said Ghost in a soft voice.

"Ghost, I'll do it. I'll wait until you two are done talking about everything. I love her Ghost. I love her very much. I promise that I won't hurt her. I love her very much. I just don't know if she feels the same for me. I know about the pack that she and Blaze have." Chris told my brother everything that he had found out.

I didn't know that he knew about the pack that Blaze and I have. I listened as they talked while I took my bath. I knew they were talking about me as they always talk about me. I sighed and got out of the bath. I sighed and got out and changed into my clothes. I brushed out my long hair and left it down. I couldn't hear my brother and Chris talking anymore. I looked at myself in the mirror and knew that I needed to let go of the girl that I used to be and let people back in.

Two hours later Ghost and I were hanging out and Chris was sound asleep in his room. I sighed and Ghost looked at me and said, "Are you okay sis?"

''I'm fine to a point. I think I should talk to Blaze about him and me. I don't want to stop being friends with him, I care for him more than anyone. I love Chris, but Blaze and I have a deal. I just don't know if I should break the deal off and trust Chris or not." I told my brother everything. I needed to tell him everything,

"Sis, you love him. I get that Blaze means a lot to you. We've been talking and Blaze knows that you love Chris and that he's in love with your friend. I think you should talk with Blaze about this and not me." Ghost told me.

I knew that he was right. I needed to talk to Blaze would be the next person I would be talking to. I sighed and looked at my phone and texted him.

To Baze:
Blaze, we need to talk. It's about the pack.

I texted him and now I had to wait for him to answer. I looked at Ghost and said, ''I texted him, but I think he's still sleeping."

To red: Hey lover I got your message. Be there in an hour. You and me. No one else.

I looked up at Ghost and said, "Go wake your lead singer. I need some time alone with Blaze."

Ghost left me and I sat down at the couch waited for them to leave. Chris came over to me and kissed me on the cheek and said, ''You okay love?"

I looked at him and said, "I love you to. I need you to leave so I can talk to Blaze. It's important and then you and me can sit down and talk some more and the reason why I need to do this."

Chris backed away from me and said, ''I love you. Do what you need to do. If it is about the pack, then I understand-"

"No, you don't know. You don't know half of it. Yes, there is a pack between me and Blaze but there is so much more you don't understand. I love him, Chris. Not the same why as I love you. I love you. I want you more than anyone else. I want to be with you. Please understand that this is between me and Blaze and no one else." I told him.

I heard him sigh and knew he was a little upset plus it didn't help that him and Blaze didn't really see eye to eye. The reason for that was because of me. I wanted Chris to understand what I needed to do. Blaze and I need to talk about the pack and everything else. I wanted Chris to understand that he has nothing to worry about.

"Ryan tell me the truth, what are you doing? I thought we were, okay?" Chris asked me.

I sighed and said, "You already knew about the pack. I know who told you about that. I want no more secrets between us. I know in my heart that I can truly love one person and I'm choosing you over Blaze. Blaze and I just need to talk about our pack. I promise nothing is going to happen. I know Blaze and he has never done anything against my will or me."

I got up to go to my room when I was grabbed from behind and someone was holding me and kissing the back of my neck. I knew it was Chris. I felt his arms tighten around me when he said, "I understand, I'm sorry. I just wanted to know where you stand is all. I love you, Ryan. I love you that it hurts. I never felt this way about a girl before. Hell, I normally just sleep with them and walk away. But you Ryan have caught me, and I never once stop to look at another girl."

I held my breath and said, "Then trust me."