I woke up with a massive hangover, laying next to Alex who wore an old, cut to crop top one direction shirt. I looked over at the clock and sighed. Even drinking the night before doesn't let me sleep in. I knew today I had to go to that music video set for little mix, making sure I take photos of all the girls and that feature they talked about. I rolled off the bed and crawled to the bathroom to shower, hoping I could forget about last night enough but the memories on the floor didn't let me. Mini bottles of jack, some joints and a missing lampshade said that once we got home we continued the party. I turned on the shower and stripped down, as I got in I seen more liquor bottles in the tub. Those were definitely not mine. Just another issue with Alex that we need to talk about. I moved the bottles and got in.
Once I finished washing my hair free from soap and from my body I got out. I reached for a towel but there wasn't any there. Groaning, I stepped out and grabbed a bedsheet from the cabinet. As I turned to wrap it around me I noticed the tattoo. The tattoo of his initials. I touched it, feeling the raised marks of the letters "CB".
Don't you dare cry.
It's been a year.
I wrapped the blanket around me and walked out to see Alex getting up.
"Hey, since I'm working today can you wash some clothes"? I asked and pulled a pair of underwear from my dresser.
"Yeah, sure". He groaned.
"Alex I mean it, and go clean the liquor bottles from the tub. Do we need to have another talk"? I asked all he did was groan louder.
"Please mom, five more minutes".
I picked up a small plastic fireball bottle and threw it at him before walking into the bathroom to change.
Today was going to be a good day. I make sure I tell myself that I'm okay, I feel fine and I'm still a bad bitch. Lately the last one has been laughing in my face but I still have two out of the three.
I dried my hair, making sure to curl it nice, applied my makeup and sprayed the crap out of my perfume. It was almost ten and I felt proud I got done in time.
"Alrigjt pookie, I'm leaving. Please feed whiskey". I said and leaned over to kiss Alex on the forehead and pet the cat next to him.
"Yeah, got it". He said. Falling back to sleep
I rolled my eyes and grabbed the keys, walking downstairs and left. Here goes nothing.
*
I got to set around noon and it was so busy. I had a hard time finding parking and one of the security guards thought I was a fan. Yeah. This is fine.
I walked through the backdoor of the bar they were shooting at and seen Jesy first. She was dressed in snake skin shorts with a black leather shirt.
"Hey you". She smiled.
"Hey. You look amazing". I smiled and she looked down at her outfit.
"Eh, I try". She smiled, then jade walked over.
"Hello darling". She smiled and sipped a cup of tea.
When Leigh-Ann and Perrie came over I'm not going to lie, I fangirled a little bit.
"So we have everything set up it looks right so you girls can just start. Where's your feature"? I asked.
"He's not here yet. He's stuck in traffic". Perrie smiled and took a call on her phone.
"Well let's get some more of you guys until he gets here". I suggested and once they walked over to the bar I let them pose however they wanted, snapping the picture quickly.
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I smiled as jesy started to laugh. "I'm so sorry I think I blinked". She said and I shook my head.
"Nope. Your okay". I said and showed the picture.
I walked off to grab my other lense and a boot took me off guard. I looked up to see Rook standing there.
"Luna"? He asked.
"What the hell are you doing here"? I gasped. I felt my lungs closing in.
"For photos. What are you doing here"? He asked and pulled me to the side
"I'm taking the fucking photos". I whispered. We now stood behind the one wall.
"Oh shit. This is insane". He whispered and I slapped his arm.
"Is he the feature on this song"? I questioned.
He went to answer until Brandon and Justin walked in.
"No fucking way"! Brandon yelled and Rook pushed him.
"Stop. She's freaking out. Where is he"? Rook asked.
"Helping Sophie get the gutairs out. Does he not know"? Brandon answered but Justin asked.
"Clearly not if she didnt". Rook said.
I had to get out of here. I turned back to the girls and gave them a smile.
"Woah, whats wrong hun"? Perrie asked.
"Um. Can I borrow a hat"? I asked.
Jesy handed me on of the cowboy hats and I quickly put it on. I turned back to Rook and he laughed.
"You didn't see me, I have a job to do so I can't leave. You tell him nothing". I hissed and fixed the hat.
"He's going to notice". Brandon whispered.
"Not if he doesn't see me. Now go over there". I said and walked back.
I grabbed my camera, my hands shaking. I can't believe this.
I changed lenses, fixed the composer of the lighting and sat down. I just can't look up for the rest of the shoot.
"Hello little mix"! I heard him speak In a British accent.
His voice never changed.
I slightly turned to him walking up to the girls as he gave them all a hug.
"Thank you so much for meeting us here. We just didn't want to make a big trip back and forth". Perrie smiled.
"Not a problem to me. The set looks sick". He smiled.
Oh that smile. I missed that smile so much. I put my head down as he passed me to go to the dressing area and once his back was facing me I got off the chair, only to run into Rook again.
"He's going to notice you of you keep leaving when he walks by". He said and I quickly stood behind him.
"He'll notice if you keep talking to me". I whispered.
Rook moved and sat down and I walked off the to back. I might as well stay here. I took the hat off of me and sighed as I turned my camera off. I can't do this. I thought I was strong enough but all I could do is think of him over and over. When I heard the director yell action I peaked through the black curtains to see the girls singing first. All I need to do now is wait until he's on and I can go. I turned around, only to bump into a bare chest. Those tattoos could be seen from space.
"Luna". He whispered.
Oh God. No.
I slowly looked up and once our eyes met I was done for.
