Anxiety, overwhelmed, overstimulated, happy. Those are just some of the emotions I held today. I looked over at my dress hanging as Amber fixed some curls and then took a picture to show me.
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"Oh its perfect". I smiled and took a breath.
"What's the time"? Amber asked and Sophie checked her phone.
"12:45".
I panicked a bit. That gives me an hour exactly. I turned in my chair and turned to Amber. She shook her head and laughed.
"You're okay". She said.
She applied my foundation and started to blend it together. Sophie walked over to show me a picture of Colson that he sent her. It was in response to when she asked how he was feeling.
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We promised we wouldn't talk at all until the actual wedding time. Deep down I needed him, I can't stop overthinking. Today was a day that I should have my parents with me, the day that should he celebrated with both Colson and my parents.
"Okay, look up and let the mascara sit". Amber said and I looked up.
"I'm going to grab some more hairpins. Don't move". She said and walked out with Sophie.
I took a deep breath and checked my phone again. Rook sent me a snapchat of Colson getting ready. Barely, he just moved to a different spot and took his hat off. Changing his hoodie.
I typed back.
"Is he okay"?
I put the phone to my chest as it vibrated again. I opened it to a thumbs up emoji. When Amber walked in she sighed.
"You're crying again". She whispered.
"I'm sorry". I mumbled and say up.
She bit her lip and shook her head. "What's wrong"? She asked.
I slapped my hands against my thighs and sighed. "I don't know. Everything".
She sat down across from me and patted my leg.
"Its just the wedding jitters. You're okay I promise you. Kells is just as nervous as you are, he just plays stupid". Sophie smiled and got up.
"Give me sec". Amber whispered and walked out of the room.
I looked in the mirror to see some of the mascara had ran down my cheeks. I grabbed a wipe and tried to fix it as much as I could but it was useless.
"I heard someone was upset and needed a cuddle"?
I turned to see Colson standing in the doorway. He had the pink suit on and I giggled.
"I knew once you seen me you'd get a crack outta this". He smiled and walked in. "Tell me what's wrong"?
I shook my head and walked over to him, sitting on his lap.
"Everything". I whispered.
"Like"?
I shrugged. "I don't have my dad or mom here to watch me".
He nodded, he understood. His parents, well his dad died before he could really make him proud.
"Then everything with the baby and then thinking about you. I'm scared".
He soothed my back and laid us down on the couch. He rubbed my side and kissed the top of my head.
"Dont be scared angel. You wanna know why I'm not"? He asked in a soft whisper.
I looked up at him. "Why"?
"Because you're my rock, holding me down. I've waited years to find someone like you and one day you came out of nowhere. You showed me love my angel and that love is what I needed to be me again".
I smiled against his chest.
"You're parents are watching down on you, so proud of their daughter just like the way I look down on you in amazement".
He sat us up and walked us to the mirror. "I mean look me. You let me wear this suit. That right there is just you're beautiful soul letting me be who I wanna be. I just hope your dress doesn't clash with me". He chuckled.
I laughed and turned to him, wrapping my arms around his neck. He bent down a little and wrapped his arms around my waist and lifted me up with him.
"Its time to get dressed and ready. You picked me to marry so you gotta deal with it". He smirked and gave me a peck on the cheek.
I nodded and gave him one last hug as Amara and Amber walked in.
"Its time for your dress". Amara smiled.
Colson nodded and put me down and walked to the door.
"Remember Angel. I cut my hair for this". He winked and walked out.
I turned to the girls as I wiped my eyes again. Thank you. I needed that". I whispered.
Amber nodded and grabbed the dress off the hook. "Ready"? She asked.
I nodded and took a deep breath.
"Yes. Absolutely ready".
*
The giant doors to the venue was all I could see. I heard the conversations from the other side of the door but I blocked it out. I was trying to work on my breathing. I felt Casey squeeze my hand.
"You look really pretty". She smiled.
"So do you". I whispered.
I turned to see Pete and Travis walking though the doors behind us and I gave them a smile.
"Let's get this wedding started shall we"? Travis smiled.
I bit my lip, trying to stop the shaking fear once again. Someone cleared their thoat behind me and I seen Alex. He held his arm out for me and I laughed.
"Remember when we were little and I agreed to walk you down the isle"? He smiled.
I let the tears flow and hugged him. Travis walked up behind me and kissed my cheek.
"You're okay. I'm right here if you need me, Kourtneys somewhere". He chuckled.
"And I'm here, but like behind you". Pete mumbled.
I turned back to Alex and he nodded to Travis to open the door. Casey handed me the pink roses and when the door opened she walked down. I chose Casey to he my maid of honor, Travis was Colson's best man.
I took a deep breath as Alex started to walk down. I prayed that I didn't fall, I prayed everything fell into place. I looked up to see friends smiling at me, but the one that caught my eye, making me giggle was Rook. He was actually crying.
"Breathe". Alex whispered.
I kept my eyes down as we walked but that moment I looked up to see Colson, everything fell into place. He gave me a wink.
We got up to the front and Alex gave me a kiss on the cheek and sat down. Colson reached out for me as he helped me the rest of the way.
This is it. The moment I've been waiting for since I was 5 years old.
