To Let it All go Down in Flames - jegulus/starchaser

The beautiful girl in the book shop (Lilly Pov)

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tw: unhappy relationship and a fight between partners

i tink you can see where this is going

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Every study group I can't get my eyes off her, I'm dating mary I am in love with Mary, I told myself every time our eyes met, I dreamed of the curly black hair of my girlfriend not the long light blond strands of the stranger, but she didn't feel like a stranger, it felt likes she was always in my life as if we complemented each other.

I am dating Mary, I repeated, I love her, we are meant for one another.

Pandora Lestrange is a pureblood for one, she believes that people like me should be arrested or killed maybe worse, she thinks that she is better than everyone, she is best friends with Sirius's brother and my girlfriends quidditch rivel – who defended her after the last match which was still odd – she runs with some of the most disliked Slytherins of the school, she is most likely straight, and she's - there are so many reasons not to do anything stupid.

So why did I want to do something stupid.

I was at Hogsmeade with Mary, she was still going on and on about that last quidditch game that happened over a week ago, she was still mad at Marline. They kept fighting. It was the same fight every time in the dorm when the marine came home late, the same one I somehow was always in the room for, the same one that always gave me a raging headache. "Why are you back so late?" Mary always asked clearly, trying to pick a fight. "Why do you care?" Marline always responded. This would carry on until one of them was in tears, sometimes both.

Why do people care so much about quidditch, I'm sorry I know it's fun but being upset about losing the cup for over a week is just ridicules.

I was staring out the window of the 3 broom sticks on that date, to anyone walking by it just looked like 2 friends having some lunch, there were no secret torches under the table like they do in books, there was no urge to kiss her in front of every one, there was no grand spectacles, or love proclamations, there was just her talking about something I didn't care about for an ungodly amount of time.

I sighed drinking some of my butterbeer as she still kept going, I didn't even bother trying to make out her words at this point, I knew what she was most likely saying, it was the same things frank had gone on about in the locker room. 'James should have passed the quaffle' 'marline doesn't know how to wield a bat, she through off everyone' 'Gabian should have left his personal life off the pitch' blah blah blah...

I tried at first, I did but a week later after hours and hours of smiling and nodding I couldn't do it.

"Lilly..." she said with a tone of disappointment or sadness. Si shook my head trying to get rid of my thoughts "Sorry what?"

She rolled her eyes smiling "We were talking about Marline's be-"

"Beater skills I know, she has no idea how to use the bat, she was not in sync with Alice, and she almost kept hitting Gryffindor's."

"Ha, you are paying attention." I wasn't I really wasn't, but she just had said it so much that it stuck in my mind, I smiled though keeping my comment to myself. "Yeah, I am."

She smiled picking back up where she left off, I suppressed rolling my eyes, as they drifted to Tomes and Scrolls across the street when I was about to ask if Mary wanted to go in there after lunch I remembered 'I don't read you know that.' I sighed again still looking out at the small shop.

I remembered all the times me and Remus went in there together, but he skipped Hogsmeade not wanting to accidentally bump into the marauders, which I already had today. I saw peter with his two people once he was holding the girls hand but then the second time I saw him he was holding the boys hand, I didn't care that much so I didn't pay it any thought, Sirius was going for a walk around the outskirts of the village multiple times I saw girls try and wave him over but he just brushed them off, I saw James at Zonkos with Rosier and Crouch and my gut wrenched when I remembered all the times the marauders were doing the same thing with him.