If I Didn't

15 -Mitch

"I don't know what to do anymore," I whispered into my pillow. I was using Kirstie's lap as support for my head, and she was stroking my head like a child. Grace was on my other side, and Grayse and Casey paced around my room. "I don't know how much longer I can live with it."

"Live with what exactly?" Kirstie asked.

"Well...he's so...amazing. And constantly I feel like my air tubes are closing in but in the best way. But now he's onto me. I think he knows that I like him, Kirst. And I told him I was jealous of the time he spends with Alex. That's only half true. Because I also want to be in Alex's place."

It doesn't seem to be fair. I don't want anybody else but Scott. Nothing would ever be the same. And now I feel like I've blown everything.

Alex is a very attractive guy. Very strong, very cute and very caring. He probably has a line of guys to go to if he and Scott were to break up. I don't think he'd be too disappointed.

I, however, do not.

"You've got it bad," Grace said quietly. I rolled my eyes in the pillow. I've got more than bad. I've got it bad times two.

"No duh."

"Where is he now?" Casey asked.

"Probably with Alex-perfect-pants." Grace snickered. "What's funny?"

"You're just a child, Mitchie."

"What is that suppose to mean?" I asked, irritated. I'd rather be alone but the girls just had to be over on the night of a breakdown.

"It means, this is all child's play. Don't waste your tears for him, Mitch. Why not give him a reason to cry over you?"

I sniffled. "I don't get it." She scoffed and rolled her eyes. Kirstie bit her lip.

"That doesn't seem like a good idea...are you saying that Mitch should try to make Scott jealous? What would that stir up? And what about Alex?"

"I'm just saying that he should bring somebody in...and let Scott see Mitch with him. See you...happy with this somebody, and let his jealous feelings marinate with his confusing 'just friends' feelings. He'll realize that your 'happiness' wasn't caused by him. And maybe, just maybe, real feelings will be revealed?" Grace paced slower in thought. I watched her, raising an eyebrow.

"Have you done this before?" I asked. She scoffed.

"Sort of."

"And did it work?"

"Sort of," she said again. I groaned. Kirstie rubbed my back, shaking her head.

"I still think it's a bad idea. A plan won't get Scott to leave Alex...I don't think."

"Sure it will. We just need to set it all up," Grace replied. She smirked then. "And I think I have the perfect person to start with."

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A/N: I've been having extreme writer's block. 😅 I didn't die.
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