Locked In🤞🏾

Chapter 25

Meg's POV:

Arguing with Tay was the worst, but arguing with her a day before prom was pass worse. I didn't mean for the statement to come out how it came out, but thats how I felt. After all these years of crushing on her, and finally her being my girlfriend made me insecure. One part of me felt like I would be selfish to let our relationship be long distance. Then the other part was my insecurities eating me up. I wanted to be with Tay no matter what it takes, but I can't help but feel that she could do better.

It would pain me 10 times more losing her when I just got her. I was messed up right now and needed someone to talk to.

"Your mom is in the parking lot waiting for you!" I hear Judy shout to me while I was talking to the coach. I just nod my head to signal that I heard her and she returned the gesture and walked away.

"Well I'll see you later coach." I say after talking with her and made my way over to the parking lot.

Just as I was about to made it to my moms car, I saw Tay and Gia talking. She must have felt my eyes staring at her because she turned her head to me causing us to lock eyes. Yup, that electric feeling is there...

I whispered an 'I'm sorry' and she rolled her eyes and rushed Gia into the car with her. I didn't even realize that my feet were walking me closer to her until my moms car start honking.

"Where are you going?" She said after rolling down her window.

"No where" I quickly answered retrieving my steps and getting in the car.

"Good evening." I simply said and buckled myself in.

"Good evening." She said back and started driving away from school.

I was quiet for the most of the car ride and was just giving my mom short answers. My mom on the other was singing horribly to her old songs that were playing at the moment.
Coincidentally the song 'miss you' from Aaliyah came on and the more my mind stayed on Tay; the more tears came down.

"Hey hey honey what's wrong?" I heard my mom concerned voice say. She probably heard all the sniffling I was doing.

"Is it something with you and Tay?" She asked cautiously after I stayed silent wiping my tears. I looked up at her a little surprised.

"Oh honey don't give me that look. Tay affects your mood more than you think." She explained and my expression turned to a confused one.

"What do you mean by that?" I asked taken aback and she just gave a warm smile.

"Let me take you somewhere" was all she said before taking a different street than the one to our house.

"Take me where?" I asked confused and she let out a frustrated sigh. Why was she frustrated?

"I'm trying to be an inspirational mom. Let me do my job Megan" she said and I just throw up my hands in defeat.

"Okay. Whatever that means" I let out and then sit back and enjoy the ride.

"Okay not too much" she warned and I just smiled at her.

As the drive continued, I started to see familiar places. Well atleast it felt familiar but I just couldn't remember why.

"We're here!" My mom clasped her hands together and unlocked the doors.

I looked out the window to see 'here' was a kids park. I came out the car with my face holding a confused expression.

"You're trying to remember what place this is right?" My mom said while we took a seat at a bench nearby.

The view consisted of children running around excitedly and their parents exhaustingly running behind them. It was a mess to say the least.

"It feels familiar but I still don't get why we're at a kids park..." i let out slowly just admiring the bright colors and nature.

"You seriously have no idea?" She asked while squinting her eyes at me because of the sun and I shook my head.

"I don't know mom. Is this your way of telling me to take my plan b?" I joked causing me and her to laugh.

"No silly! I know you can't necessarily have kids that way" she said carefully and I nodded my head in return.

"Look around carefully" she insisted and I did just that.

I looked around noticing all the exited carefree kids. Maybe someday I will have kids but as of right now I just want to be a kid myself a little more.

"You're still thinking about the kids thing?" My mom deadpanned and shook her head at me.

"I don't know what you want from me" I defended and she sighed and directed my head to a sign nearby that had the initials T and M.

As if I was struck by lightning, I jumped up realizing where I was. I laughed to myself for being ridiculous at not remembering something so significant to my life. How could I forget?

"This is the place where me and Tay first met." I said happily and
my mom her nodded happily at my realization.

I came to sit beside her appalled at how much the place has changed. When I met Tay here it only had a sandbox, a slide, and swings. Now it looks like every kids while dreams when it came to parks with enough for atleast 100 kids.

"I remember that day clearly," my mom started causing me to give her my full attention.

"You were sad and I mean really sad! You didn't even want to play football in the backyard. Your dad was concerned so he suggested we took you to the park. We got in the car and came here because your dad thought you needed to interact with other kids. Then when your dad went to buy ice cream you just broke down crying and telling me how the other kids bully you because of your skin tone." She had a sad smile on her face. I know now that on that day she felt like she failed.

"Me and your dad didn't even consider that when we were signing you up for that school. We just wanted the best for you." I nodded at this understanding that it wasn't their fault.

"Then Tay came up to you at the park and it was like you forgot everything happened. The minute she smiled at you it was like all your worries were lifted and you immediately started to talk and run around with her. You didn't get along with much people so me and your dad knew Tay was gonna be someone special to you." I smiled as the memory popped up in my head vaguely. She's my light. Tay's my light.

"It was like it was set in stone because the day we talked to her parents they told us that they just moved and was sending Tay to the same school. Me and your dad waited it out and saw a significant change from you being sad after school to always coming home telling exciting stories about you and Tay." She continued and a tear came down leaving its wet mark on my thigh.

"I feel so bad for making her feel like I could live without her. B-because to be honest with you i feel like I can't freakin  breathe without her." I sobbed into my mom arms.

She was rubbing circles on my back and was repeating 'it's gonna be okay'. I wanted to apologize to Tay at all cost and make things right before we left off for uni. After a moment of silence I finally stopped crying to ask my mom something.

"Can you drop me off somewhere?" I lifted my head up to say to my mom and she smiled at me and nodded her head.

We left the bench and walked over to the car. I got in and we both put on our seatbelts and was about to drive off, but my mom had to let something off her chest first.

"Oh! Don't use 'freakin' when talking to me again."  She scolded and I couldn't help but laugh at how she caught that and was holding it in to not cuss me out just now.

Time to get my girlfriend back!

A/N: I'm on vacationnn so I'm probably gonna be finish this book SOON. I can't wait for you all to read the other one I have in mind🥰