Connected.

30. College

A few weeks after graduation I had to get my shit together. I was moving by myself in a old house because the newer ones were expensive. The money I used for that house were the money I've been saving for college, but I've figured that I'd get a job to help pay for it.
It was really hard leaving my mom and my cat all alone, seeing my friends build their own lives and following their dreams without me in the picture, but I was more worried about my future than theirs.
While I was packing my bags, I had a brilliant idea. I called Belial up and asked him if they needed a new drummer, since their last drummer killed herself. At first he wasn't sure what to say, even though he knew that I needed the job since he didn't want me to be a replacement to their old drummer. I understood his decision and to talk to the other members of the group about this. A thought came to my mind that day'If I get into that band and we have a concert in my hometown, Emmerson will see his ex on the stage. That's good revenge'. That made me feel more motivated.
Later I found out that all of the members agreed for me to join their band.
Three days after that Belial showed up at my front door as I was assembling my new hot pink couch.
'That couch is so you!', he exclaimed pointing both of his index fingers at my brand new couch.
'Do you like it? It comes with matching cat pillow cases too! I bet you'll look so good on my couch!', I said, hugging him from the back.
The both of us put on our favorite songs and assembled things until our hands were shaking.
That night, me and Belial talked A LOT about our teenage years. And Belial revealed something to me that only he knows.
'Zephyr, I think I trust you enough to tell you my biggest traumatic experience. I am begging you to not tell anyone about this.', he expressed, shaking and looking me in the eyes.
I embrace him while locking my face with his and gently kissing him for the first time.
'You can tell me anything, I haven't told a soul what we talked about, I swear.'
I could feel the heat of his face on mine, as he said the most heartbreaking words I've ever heard a human say.
'I was..this is really hard to say because I've been holding it in myself for five years.
I am going to start from the beginning. I was in middle school with this girl named Lola. She was very nice to begin with, but after a few years we needed to go to highschool. Lola couldn't accept the fact that me and her would be separated, because we were always together, so she decided to do something to me that I would never forget.
It was a sunny summer morning, and I have just woken up. Me and Lola had a sleepover the night before. She was standing over me fully undressed. Once she saw that I had woken up, she started undressing me too and, you know... I tried screaming, but I felt paralyzed, I felt stuck, ashamed even. After that situation Lola changed her name to Emmerson and started using masculine pronouns. I'm so sorry you had to deal with that monster.'.
'Oh my god! I am extremely sorry Belial, he will pay for this! I swear to God I am going to either put him in jail, destroy his mentality or murder him! I love you so much and I cannot believe he would've done such a thing to you!', I said, kissing Belial's forehead.
The both of us knew what we had to do next...

Author's note:
Adults are just traumatized kids forced to grow up.