Connected.

Chapter 1:My childhood

I had a pretty normal upbringing,but I was a very unusual child. I was a loner most of the time, because I felt safer alone,no one could hurt me, and I couldn't hurt them.
The game was simple. Ignore. Everyone.
That was until elementary school,when I later on made some friends.
But elementary was hard for me, because....
When I was thirteen years old,I had my first hallucination, I saw a jester,my greatest fear at that time, watching me from outside that window. I could hear him telling me to come closer, but I was frozen so I couldn't have said anything. A pretty silly hallucination to have,I know,but little me didn't realize that what I saw wasn't real.
I quickly went to my parents and told them what happened.
A few days later,me and my parents went to a therapist hoping they could somehow'fix me'.
Later I found out that I have a mental disorder called schizophrenia. The psychologist told me and my parents that I was a very rare case, because not many people experience schizophrenia at such a tender age, alongside having illusions.
What scared me the most wasn't the fact that I have a severe mental illness, it was the saddened look on my parents' face.
A doctor said that I needed to be put on medication, but my parents thought the doctor was trying to drug me so I didn't take medication until I was up to sixteen years old.

Author's note:
Let's not mention how in the first year of highschool, when I was supposed to be a freshman, I was homeschooled because I was afraid that my experience with school was going to be worse than it already was.

Schizophrenia is a chronic brain disorder, and it affects less than one percent of the U.S. population.

Some symptoms can include delusions, hallucinations, disorganized speech, trouble with thinking and lack of motivation.

Delusions are false beliefs that someone holds onto, even if there is evidence that they are not rational.

Hallucinations are a false perception (of your environment ,objects,etc.)involving your senses: sight, sound, smell, touch and even taste. Hallucinations seem real, but they're not.
Hallucinations are caused by chemical reactions in your brain and/or abnormalities.

Disorganized speech is an interruption that makes communication difficult and sometimes impossible to understand.

Trouble with thinking, a.k.a brain fog, affects a variety of mental processes, including memory and concentration. Brain fog can be frustrating and confusing. However, people can use several methods to help them cope.

Low motivation can be a common symptom of many mental health issues. You can practice self-help and self-care as much as you can, but you may find that seeking professional help is more helpful for your emotions.
Low motivation can make daily activities difficult, even waking up in the morning, to getting work done.

If you or someone else experience these symptoms please get medical help!