Nick and Charlie 6 years into the future

problems

Nicks point of view:

Charlie woke up from his nap a little while later and we just cuddle for about half an hour not saying anything, it was about 4 o'clock now. Charlie hasn't eaten anything today. nothing. nothing at all. i look down at charlie, hes laying on top of me his head in the crook of my head, i felt his warm breathe on my skin. i wish we could say like that forever, but i knew i'd have to bring up about what happened and whats going on. so i chose that i was going to ask now.

"char" i whisper
"yeah" he mumbles 
"we need to talk" i say
"about what" he asks sitting up onto my lap
"charlie you know what i want to talk about"
"oh" he looks down looking disapointed in himself
"darling please, we really need to talk" i say. i need to fix this, i need to fix charlie
"okay" he mutters
"do you want me to book you an appointment with geoff aswell" i ask
"i dont know ill think about it"
"okay, so can you tell me"
charlie inhales then exhales before tell me 
"so the last couple weeks have been really hard for me, especially this week" he starts off
"whys that then babe"
"basiclly on some my my instagram posts with us together, or hugging, kissing or what ever, people have been saying some really hurtful stuff, and i think im starting to believe it"
"like what"
"erm, they've said that 'oh i cant believe that nick is going out with you' or 'you dont deserve nick' 'nick probably doesnt even love you' 'nicks only going out with you for a laugh' and you know that photo that you took of me alseep without a shirt on that i posted"
"mhm" 
"they have been making fun of me because of my weight, and it really hurts" charlie says starting to cry
"oh sweetheart" i pull charlie in for a hug "dont you ever think that these bullies are correct, because they are not. they are probably only saying those things because they are living a sad, misreble life and they will never get a relationship like ours, and promise you that i love you with all my heart, and it will stay like that till the day i die. i love you so so much charlie, so so much. i will never leave you, i will stay with you till of of us dies, never believe that those people say ever"
"do you promise all of that"
"110%, god i love you so much"
charlie smiles
"is that why you relapsed" i ask 
he looks up into my eyes and nods sadly, tearing up again
"can i have a look" i point to his sleave, he nods a again

i pull up the sleaves of my hoodie and look at Charlies wrists, i was stunned, ive never seen a cut as deep that this before, i touch it and charlie winces
"sorry did i hurt you"
"mhm" he nods as he pulls the sleaves down again
"charlie i have a question"    
"yeah"
"d-did you try to kill yourself, because that cut looks really deep, and im really worried for you"
"n-no i would never, i hope anyway, sorry i didnt mean to worry you, i was thinking with my dick"
"hey no apologising, but can you eat something, you havnt eaten all day"
"erm okay"

me and charlie walk down stairs and i make some sandwiches for us, something easy for charlie to eat. after we finish eating we watch some of the harry potter movies to make charlie feel better as its his favourate movie series and by the time we finished watching them it was around 10 o'clock at night. it was quite a hot night so i just wore some pj shorts and charlie wore my hoodie and some pj shorts too. we climb into bed and charlie snuggles into my chest and we both fall asleep

authors note:
okay now we know whats up with charlie, fuck those bastards on charlies insta, they dont deserve a life, also school was shit for me today, this boy is so transphobic towards me and its making me feel like crap, but i hope that it will be better next time. also sorry its not very long i just didnt have any desent ideas. think positive guys.
bye retards